My Inner Thoughts

my new journey

2012-01-18T17:28:00.001-08:00

being pregnant is indeed a journey. i have only been pregnant for 3 months now and i have already been through alot. well, not really the negative things that comes to mind.

being pregnant is indeed a wonderful blessing for me, but sometimes, you just dont feel so good when you are.. ( whoever said being pregnant is easy).

first of all, there are lots of things to consider and to be cautious of everything.

food- there is an excuse to eat a little more than you should without people telling you regarding overeating BUT that is if you are allowed to eat your favorite food! during pregnancy, there are some food that you can't eat as it could harm the baby. so before enjoying your favorite dish, ask first if you are allowed to eat it. also, for those who does not eat veggies and fruits , well, this time you have no choice if you want your child to be healthy. (yes, i must confess, i dont eat veggies much, but learning to eat them now as there is a need)

second, things that we used to do, sometimes are forbidden or rather not recommended. which also have the advantage and disadvantages. just like doing household chores and lifting heavy things, in my part atleast, i have always been used to stand independently and do all my household chores on my own. i would clean my room, do the laundry and wash the dishes, but now, im not even allowed to do any of those. my hubby actually does it for me. which is an advantage but the thing is, as much as you would like to help out to atleast do something, while waiting for time to pass by, you cant, and with that, you get bored. you also can't move as fast as you used to as you need to be careful in staining your body. slipping should be avoided, and sometimes even taking a bath during evenings even if your used to taking a shower before you go to sleep.

third is mood swings. being pregnant gives you the right to be a brat to some extent, but mood swings can ruin not only your mood but also of your partner.

and lastly, body changes and reactions. changes and reactions differ with every pregnant woman. others would not feel a thing except their belly getting bigger each month but some??? well they do suffer specially during the first trimester. me for example, my first 2 months of pregnancy is bliss! well not really but i dont really crave and no nausea nor dizziness. only headache at times and tenderness of breast but as the 3rd month approaches, i started vomitting, feeling nausea, headache and dizziness and backache and mind you, they stike anytime of the day or in my case, at night. also feel the urge of going to the cr to urine more often, even during the wee hours. another change you will notice is ofcourse you not being able to fit your favorite jeans unless its atleast 3x your size. lol. your hips expanding and your tummy getting bigger. there are also times you will experience cramps, bloatedness and God knows what else.

but inspite of those painful and blissful experiences, by the end of the day, you will still feel bless for that little life growing inside you and indeed, you will always say that they are worth the little sacrifices you had to give up just to have them in this world.

a miracle indeed..

2011-11-21T05:03:00.001-08:00

there was a point in my life i almost gave up on loving.. glad i didnt!

these past few months has been a busy time for me.. specially because of the fact.. i came back to being active in church.

because of my bestfriend, who wanted to regain the adventist youth spirit, he used me to basically stand as a representative/spokesperson to have the activities and the youth join in. with this, i started going to church again, gaining new friends and catching up with the old ones too..

there are alot of pressure, stress, (talk about being a shock absorber) and most of all, fun fun fun.That is what these activities is all about.

within a small period of time, inspite of feeling old (due to most of the youth are indeed youth age ranging 13 - 24) i simply cant help but reminice our "time" and that made me realized how much i've missed being with my adventist "me". i missed being active in church activies, as it has been a while i laylowed in such.

not only had i gained friends, but was able to catch up with old ones. them being mostly married.. ika nga, napagiiwanan na daw ako ng panahon.. lol. well, i guess not anymore..

during the period of getting busy serving Him.. He apparently gave me a gift that i least expected.

The one..

yes, because of these activities, i got to meet the person i think is my perfect match.. some may think its a whirlwind romance.. but for us, its seems we've been together for so long.

in a short span of time, we decided to basically live together, and now.. we are about to have a little bundle of joy.

its a weird and wonderful feeling inspite of the feeling of uneasiness. its my first time to actually feel such.

now i better understand when mothers say, "iba talaga ang feeling ng nagbubuntis at pagiging ina". kahit hirap, kahit feeling mo pagod ka, kakayanin mo, para sa magiging anak mo.. i may not have felt too well lately, but i am taking extra na precautionary measure pa to take care of myself. little pressures are no longer allowed for me, and im much thankful my mom inlaw is indeed very supportive. everyone are just so excited, specially me and leo.

i really cant feel what they call "paglilihi" unless frequent headache, dizziness and mood swings are part of it. also, my appetite had greatly increased! :(.

also feel a little awkward as a feel little abdomenal cramps, upon research and according to my OB, these could be normal, but still needs to be careful. it could end up as an ectopic, specially that the result of my lab pregnancy test is positive weak.

i had to take some meds and vitamins and drink milk to keep me healthy and make sure the baby will keep hanging on.. lets keep praying for that..

but for now, i am enjoying the feeling of about to be a mom, at my age, i hope i wont be having anything too complicated for me, my hubby and our baby to handle..

indeed, this little life inside me is a miracle and a blessing indeed..

early morning drama

2011-08-23T04:09:00.001-07:00

many words keep spinning in my head
it seems like my world is in a thread
between learning to love again
and fighting to avoid hurt and pain

could it be, ive given up on searching
for the one who is meant for me?
Or perhaps, He is just preparing
to actually meet the one, who will let me be

sometimes i grow tired
of waiting for "the" signs..
there was never really a standard,
just a "know how" between the lines

Will he ever come my way?
that is the question, i've got to face
someone to call my own..
and will never ever leave me feeling alone...

Reposting : Fraud

2011-05-25T05:05:00.000-07:00

you may think this is a continuation of what happened to me last time.. well sort of.

you see, the article about a fraud case? is actually not true.. it was a story made up by someone who we thought was a friend.

yes, a so called friend who i accepted in my life with no "buts" but all she did was swindle all i ever had. (accepted in a sense that "tinanggap ko sya bilang tao at pinaka harapan bilang tao).
and what is more painful is that.. she was accepted here at home without anything else to wear, nothing to eat and no money to spend. and she was able to do all this to me.. to us..

admittedly, i feel ashamed of what happened but what the heck, it is not my fault at all! she was good! she was good in showing she was the victim. she was never one. she had always been the mastermind of everything. all the characters she came up with, are all ficticious! from the "friend" sa bank to the attorney at law who handled the case to the vice president of the bank. all where just lies.

there was even a story where she claimed she was a battered child and her mom is a battered wife and a case was filed against her dad. a story that her mom was hit by a trike and was in coma that time. and her mom was operated for cataract and the hospital wont provide them a promisory note for them to go out due to non payment. and even her alibies over the holidays just so she need not come to work. she was a best actress and definitely she deserves an oscar!

and what's worse is the after shock of everything. i have lots of credit card bills to pay. and all those "utang" just to come up with the "trial" money.

what i can't understand is.. how can anyone be so heartless for her family. she had to make up stories about her mom dying, her father hurting her, her mom being in the hospital, and her brother being stranded in Manila and she had to go back there to pick him up. all tragic stories had all been made up. we dont even know at all if there is such truth with what she told us at all. i for myself definely wont make up such stories about my family. specially my parents.

lesson learned.. never trust anyone that easily specially when money matters are involved.my bad i guess.

trust is very important in every relationship whether it be friendship, work relationship etc.. but once the trust has been broken, it can never be gained back. so take care of it. learn to be true to the people who had been true to you. karma will definitely get back at you.maybe that's the reason why you are feeling all kinds of sickness. kasi binabalikan ka ng conscience mo..

to you: i treated you as a friend.. a confidante.. and trusted you. all the while i thought totoong tao ka.. everything was eventually lies! di ako nagpapatanaw ng utang na loob, pero sa ganitong sitwasyon, ikaw ang taong literal na walang utang na loob...

Just in case you may encounter her :
Details :

Name : Cezairleen Cabrera Mangila
Nick : Cezzy, Cez, Cezois, Cezairleen Mangila, Cezairleen
Location : Mexico Pampanga
Birthday : December 17
Email address:cezairleen@yahoo.com

She may make up stories about her family just like she did to us. In case you may encounter her, check out her picture.

another picture of Cez

what might have been...

2011-05-21T00:26:00.001-07:00

here i go again, lying restless in bed
thinking about things that goes above my head
things about happiness, love, life and all
about "what if"s, could've been, either big or small

ive thought of my past relationships;
both about love and friendships
the difference between the two,
when one had become after the other

i used to have a "him"
who was a friend turned lover;
but things didnt worked out;
and so decided to find another;

i used to have a friend; who apparently became special;
having an "us" did not work; due to distance differential;
but friendship bloomed more, even after confrontations
we're better off that way, with no further expectations

i also had "what if" and shouldve been "him"
sometimes, i still give it some thoughts
just thinking about it could make me beam;
perhaps a second chance for whatever its worth

there are also those whom i wish i hadnt met
cause all they did was cause me pain
but those are still people i will never forget
they made me stronger, not all was in vain

having to look back, for all aches i've been through
i still manage to smile; and say i wont be blue
im still looking forward in meeting "you"
not mr perfect, but someone i would want to say "i do" ....

rainbow after the rain

2011-03-11T21:36:00.001-08:00

after what happened to me.. sometimes i cant help but feel down and feel a little pity for myself.. specially now that i have to be more thrifty for things i used to enjoy. coffee at starbucks, yummy desserts,cravings for dishes i miss eating, travelling to places and buying things for my self.. i have to adjust and sacrifice spending for so many things that i previously have no problem on spending to before. - sino ba naman ang di madedepress nun! feeling deprived of things you are working hard for just to enjoy. now i am working for something i didn't even enjoy cause someone had spent it for someone else.. pathetic how people would do anything just to get the attention of the person they like. even if it means stealing and tellings lies for the money. and even putting the lives of their love ones on the line. talk about buying "love".

but inspite of what happened.. i have learned alot. about trusting, paying attention to details, saving up and friendship.

i thank God for having friends.. true friends. unlike "her" who needs to buy people just to be accepted. too bad, money can't buy everything.

whenever i feel depressed or down because of lack of money to spend, i just think things over and count my blessings. i still manage to face my collegues at work with no shame at all, i have friends who understand and willing to help out anyway they can, i can still manage to eat and keep my self nourished just to get me through each day, inspite of hunger, atleast its not starvation.. lol.. , i can still smile and have fun without having to worry what to scheme on next. i dont have to lie and make some excuses just to get what i want. i have a job to which i earn just right so i could live and survive, i have my family to whom inspite of the "sermon" still is there to support me. and ofcourse to Him, that inspite of all i've done, being inactive in church, and sometimes neglecting Him, still His presence was never gone. He makes it a point that i survive and blessings keep coming in specially when i needed them most. and indeed, it gives truth to the saying "there is always a rainbow after the rain" and even if there is an aftermath, atleast after the aftermath, it will just remain a memory, a memory that made us learn and be stronger, tougher and braver.

fraud part 2

2011-03-02T22:48:00.001-08:00

fraud

2011-02-21T00:14:00.001-08:00

who would have thought.. i for once will be experiencing such! i have gone through alot of stress for the past few months.. but the most stressful thing is having nothing else to spend because someone else took your money!

good thing,,, God is indeed good! He surrounded me with friends who are indeed good hearted..

you see, what happened was, we were doing some online transaction cause a friend of mine need to transfer her cash on my account as her atm was lost.. when i checked my balance... the money were there together with mine.. the following day, as i decided i need to withdraw, i checked my balance online.. as i did.. i was debited the whole amount together with my friend's money!

how could this happen, i didnt even visited the atm machine yesterday and early the next day. so i tried checking my balance again and again. possible error.. but its not.. then i checked my withdrawal transactions.. and poof! there goes an account number i don't know of..6019xxxxxxxx6228. the money was transferred online and its shows that it was approved like as if i was the one who transferred it. so having worried that the money was transferred by mistake to a colleague, i asked our accounting head if there is such set of numbers that belong to one of the employees so we can just transfer it back to my account.. its appears that it was not in our records at all. with this, comparison was made with the account numbers of my collegue who was debited a month back... and as she was a newbie, i made a comparison with the mysterious account number and hers.. which turned out that the account numbers are almost the same. which means the mysterious account number was just a new account! and possible its just within the area.. if im not mistaken, account numbers have their codes for a certain area and location and account. so if the account number is similar as ours,, it must have been of the same atm account type as i have verified my sister's as well to make sure i was coming up with the right conclusion. my friend, who transferred her money was also worried ofcourse since she was badly in need of cash too that time.. good thing she knows someone from the main branch of the bank. so what she did was, she consulted her friend (which i was thankful for her great help) about our scenario. cause with the facts i have at hand, i was thinking that there is a possible fraud going on..( i wouldnt complain in the first place if i knew the account number was someone i have given authority to..besides, there isnt anyone who knows my pin and my account number that goes with it ) so when my friend consulted her friend about it, we gave the account number in question and my account number. its like we will be filing a questionable transfer without having to withdraw or do anything at all. her friend adviced us that she will be getting back to us once she would have any updates. apparently, she told her boss about my case and her boss decided to actually find out what transpired in the process..

turned out to be the account was indeed frauded! and it was an inside job! but not just an inside job.. there was someone inside and out of the company involved in the process.

last week, we got an update from our source.. it turned out to be that my debited transaction turned out to be a case.. an actual legal case. we would be filing a case against the people involved..

with that we have to come up with a certain amount of money to pay for the atty's fee.. as i am determined to file a case for these people. the bank actually helped us with the case as it could also be a bad publicity on their part. we had to come up with a big sum of money so we can file the case immediately. good thing we were able to find the amount asap. with the support of friends, and financial help, we were able to collect the money in the nick of time.

saturday, feb 12, the arrest for the people involved was done. and i was informed about it.. rather a so called arrest. as they made it appear as if he was really arrested and bailed out the next day.. on a sunday! (it was too late when i was adviced that there are no bails on a sunday)

i was shocked when i actually found out who was behind everything..surprisingly.. it was someone unexpected.. someone who used to be a friend.. who despise everything about me for the reason i don't really know..

funny how a simple assumption can make a difference..

and it turned out.. i was not the only victim.. he had made previous transactions as such but of smaller amount than of mine.. no wonder he wanted my friend to get out of my jurisdiction.. tsk tsk.. i cant imagine how someone could stoop down so low just to get even..

its amazing how things have turned around so fast. many updates has been made and and things turned out the way we thought it was. we found out that the atty from the company was an accomplice (which explains the arrest and bail issue and the so called "story behind the coincidental transfer and frame up story to make sure that the person who gave my information will appear as a frame up.." ) and you know why? because one of the so called mastermind involved was actually the vice president of the company. which the bank themselves found out, they have been doing it for quite some time already.. its sad to know that the person of wealth would do such thing.

today, feb 21, the results were out and the sentences are served. we are fine with the results, as they were found guilty without doubts but the sentence given was quite unfair as its just a year of imprisonment. and they have been doing it for years now. its was just now that they have come across someone who would actually complain, after all, 8k is not a joke for someone who works hard for the money. pity how such a little amount (compared to millions) could make people do such things.. "dahil lang sa 8 libo.. hinayaan mong madungisan yung pangalan at dangal mo" .

sometimes it makes you think.. how could some people be so low.. to think, they are already rich, and as for my "friend" who told many lies just to get away with it, quoting:" mahirap lang kami, pero may dignidad kami" does not apply to you. hindi kami nanghahamak.. ikaw ang umagrabyado.. at kami ang naperwisyo.. di mo alam kung gano kasakit samin ang naging sitwasyon dahil sa kagagawan mo at kababawan mo.. sabi mo nga.. "God bless nalang sayo.." ang sagot ko sayo? "thank you.. pinagpapala talaga ni Lord ang mga inaapi.. "

may this serve as a lesson for everyone. especially to you my "friend" .

in the end.. the truth shall still prevail and He will never give us trials we can never overcome. admittedly, there was a time i was about to give up on the case. but blessings kept coming in the most unexpected way.

i want to thank this opportunity to thank those who have helped out. financially and moral support. without you, we wouldnt have made it till the end. you know who you are and i need not mention names. my heartfelt thank you!

silence

2011-02-12T00:12:00.001-08:00

random thoughts are entering my mind
searching frantically hoping that i would find
the words to express how i really feel right now
the pain inside me, conquers my life somehow

im struggling to stand up and make this work out
but if it would only be me, then i'll just let you out
no need to think of any reasons, excuses or lies
to keep others happy but you being cold as ice

it pains me to think.. to go through this again
risking for happiness with you and me till the end
i dont want to regret what i had with you
but with the way things are.. it seems theres no choice but do

i only wanted to feel how much you love me..
if its for real, its not too much to ask,, really
a simple hug, and a warm embrace
the look in your eyes when you just smile and gaze

it's difficult for me to let go of you;
inspite of what you've done and made me go through
i guess i ought to say.. this is finally goodbye
it is better this way than go on with a lie....

my passion

2011-01-21T22:21:00.001-08:00

i missed writing so much.. writing about anything under the sun.. some people may find it difficult to express how they feel inside through writing.. not with me.. i may not be an perfect with grammars and dictions and all those english rules, but what the heck? my writings are more of an expression of self rather than impressing people.. this is where i put all my thoughts, feelings, and words that are quite difficult to say out loud.. or directly to the person. sometimes, things that are better left unsaid and if i cant contain it, i go by writing.. if some things are not really for public viewing or is too confidential to share in a blog,, try making your journal.. some may find it corny, or too childish.. but in reality, that would only depend what you are writing about.. and after a few months or so, when you look back, you could just laugh about what you have wrote and sometimes makes you realize how much youve grown and matured as an individual, or sometimes, it would just give you a chance to laugh at a memory of the past.. nothing beats a memory worth reminisicing..

patience..

2011-01-16T20:21:00.001-08:00

They say patience is indeed a virtue,some say,patience is a skill... But either way, both seems so hard 2 acquire. I admire people who can withstand life's challenges with grace. Its something i think i dont really have. Most people tend to do things to others without having to consider what the other person would feel. They would thought,it would be fine to keep doing the same mistakes all over again thinking the other party is just fine with it. Little did they know,patience could wear off through time... And when that time comes, it will just be a slap in the face for that person. It gets tiring to be nice specially if some people takes advantage of you. Dont they even realize that you are also a person who gets tired too? Well,apparently not. They may have mistaken you as a robot or a doll perhaps? Well... Give them a reason to think again...
I just wish those people would think first... Before doing things or make decisions... Or else,the other person just might walk out of your life in a blink of an eye. And just then you realize how important this person is for you... ~ NAHJ12

Angel Undercover

2010-11-14T15:42:00.000-08:00

I am keeping thoughts to myself at times I feel down
Stressed out in the world, I could almost drown
It seems to me that my life is at a point in time
Where everything is blur, and i can't seem to see the sign

When I was younger, I have longed for happy ending;
My "prince" will come, and all will just fall into place
But as I grew old older, I realize there's a lot that needs mending
A perfect fairytale don't exist and just keeps you in a daze

And now I'm at a struggle of giving myself a chance
To allow myself to love again, to give my heart another glance
A chance that could mean, another shot of pain
In a situation, that I know not what I could gain...

You see, I have been hurt in the past
I was shattered and broken just like a glass
I used to be a risk taker when it comes to loving..
Now I'm quite hesitant; I just don't want to keep on trying

But it seems that more I gave up on that matter,
the more it shows me my options;
Can't I just live in my life and simply don't bother
to avoid from hurting and avoid complications?

You know what I hate about you?
You just had to show up and ruin everything I planned;
With that wonderful smile, it prevents me from feeling blue;
With the look in your eyes; that tells me "hey, I got my eyes on you"

Wish I could just walk away, and pretend I never knew you;
Back in the time when I just simply pass by you.
Or simply stare at you, without you knowing
Cause the more I talk to you, I more I think I'm falling...

The best I could hope for, is you, feeling the same way;
Attraction seems strong; cause you are the one who brightens my day
Your mysterious personality, your smile that keeps me blind
And the more I get to jive with you, the more I can't get you out of my mind

I wish I could say, its just a simple crush;
But It seems to me, everything is just too much
I feel like being in high school once again;
Getting that "giddy" feeling , and I guess, I just cant pretend

I don't really know if this is going anywhere;
I guess I really don't care if this is going no where
All I know right now, you're my "angel" under cover
I could only possibly hope, you're the one I could be with forever...

letting go of the past

2010-10-31T01:51:00.001-07:00

hi peeps..

don't get me wrong.. this time.. this post isnt for me... but for a person close to me..

this friend of mine is actually courting a girl.. but can't seem to focus with it.. why?? because he may not admit it.. he is still clinging to his past..

i have talked to my friend and ask him how he feels about the girl he was courting.. he told me he is interested.. very much interested to the point that he is actually making plans for his future with the girl he likes.. but what is stopping him?

one time, he was browsing his facebook account.. and he came across the profile of his ex girlfriend. upon browsing her pics.. he realized he still have feelings for her.. pained.. yet he seem to still keep the feelings.. hidden somewhere within..

its sad to know the painful truth if i were the girl.. the fact still lies inspite of courting me.. the guy is still holding on to the past.. I myself had been there.. being with guys coming from a painful heartbreak.. me, acting like a fall back.. never knowing when the guy will actually let go of the past and focus on me for the future.. well apparently it didnt happen.. as what you have guessed.. the relationship ended... in the end.. it will be atleast 2 people or more could get hurt in the process... the girl, the guy for hurting the girl and possibly the girl whom the guy love so much..

piece of advice: before going or entering another relationship, make sure that you are ready to let go of the past.. fix all loop holes and mend all open wounds.. so that by the time you are into your new relationship.. you are starting anew and you can give more focus with your new relationship..

Also avoid comparing.. you will never find the new one better cause you have been with the old one for so long.. learn to give the new one a chance to be themselves.. not trying to compete with your past...

Taking over again..

2010-10-04T17:41:00.000-07:00

After a month of non-blogging... here i am trying to compose an update...

actually.. I don't really know what to share.. but what i can say is.. I am happy lately.. There are things that happened over the past weeks that made me change my point of views. and literally turned my world upside down.

You see.. on my previous post, i was in the stage of letting go and closing all my doors for any other possibilities.. I guess.. things are wayyy too different now.. dont get me wrong.. its not the same person...

You see, I am much more wiser.. and stronger when it comes to the matters of the heart.. I actually thought I would never feel this again.. Yes, I guess I could say.. I am feeling that jittery feeling .. yung "kilig" na masasabi.. for someone AGAIN.. but this time.. although cautious.. he still seem to make his way to my heart and mind..

I closed my doors for the possibility of loving again after my "bestfriend" left me "struggling on moving on.. Indeed, the saying, "love/opportunity/ happiness comes when you least expect it.. " cause I never really expected someone would still be knocking on my door again..

He was someone I least expect.. Not much of an ideal guy for me.. quite the opposite actually.. It was not also love at first sight.. He was actually introduced to me by a good friend.. a former collegue from my former employer. She told me, she would just like to introduce me to someone.. I said sure.. after all.. pakikilala lang naman pala diba? She got my number and gave it to the guy (which turned out to be her cousin).

After a few days, this guy started texting and i replied just like a normal person would do.. exchanged hi and hello's, introductions and all. eventually..i've learned of his age.. he is very young indeed.. he even asked me if its ok for me to be texting someone younger than me.. i said its fine.. friends lang naman.. (as i was not really planning for anything more than that.. )

He would actually want to meet me in person, at first I was hesitant, well, i guess it wouldnt hurt to meet up with someone right? but for some reason, we were not able to meet then.

One time, I scheduled a get together with some friends.. including the person who introduced him to me.. and meeting him became inevitable.. hahahah.. yes. he was there too.. Me being dressed in a not so "presentable" way, with just shorts and shirt and even wearing slip ons. (in short.. not being my glamorous self.. lol) met up with them. Chemistry nor spark was not actually there.. atleast not that I see. but apparently.. that did not stopped him from communicating.. The first meeting was repeated... and eventually, even if he was on vacation, he still manage to keep in touch.

One thing about him that attracted me most was his outlook in life..he thinks maturely .. way too older for his age actually... more matured than me i should say.. funny thing is that.. everytime i talk to him, he would always mention me with his plans in life.. its like I was already part of his future. (to think, di pa nga kami.. lolz).

I have had some dilemma though.. As I mentioned.. he is younger than me.. i was thinking .. baka natutuwa lang sya sakin or he can always change his mind anytime and find someone atleast his age... but the more I talk to him.. the more i get to know him.. the more i feel secure that he is serious with his intentions.. his not looking for any flings.. nor just merely playing games.. he has plans of working abroad.. and wanted to work .. para mapantayan ako.. (parang namn ang taas taas ko.. :-s).. He actually taught me to be patient with everything.. Sometimes, I cant help but magtampo since he has been busy lately.. pero by the end of the day.. when i see a missed call and a message from him.. I would just smile.. cause by the end of day or the week.. I would realize.. he was just busy and he does miss me kahit ayaw nyang aminin.. hahahha.. (ako b naman di magparamdam ng 1 week) :D... lolz.. and now.. he is the reason why I can smile in the morning and inspite of having a bad day or a bad week, just a text or a call from him.. can make me smile.. (blush)..

I'm not predicting anything; but Im hoping for the best..Im keeping my fingers crossed. Im cautious but I am now ready to give my full trust again.. hopefully this time.. it will last.. no matter what.... for the meantime.. I am enjoying what i feel.. he makes me smile.. thats all i could say....

Be happy everyone..

bitter and better...

2010-08-16T16:47:00.000-07:00

I am still struggling to keep my mind set on things that only matters; but apparently, I am not that strong.. as yet.. somehow.. his messages still affects me....

After my Cebu trip, I promised myself, I left every trash in Cebu.. I left my old self and I left my heart that loved him all this time. A couple of weeks after, he sent me a message.. asking how am i doing and he doesnt even know that i was furious of him before.. good thing I wasnt there to answer it immediately. I guess part of it came home with me.. I must admit, I haven't stopped loving him.. He will always have a special part in my life.. he was and will always be my bestfriend.. my confidante and a the love that can never be.. but he will always be that.. and that alone. No more holding on to the thoughts of "what if" and "if only" cause there is the term... It could never be... and Its not meant to be .. cause if you keep on "holding on", you can never move on and find the love that you truly deserve as your focus would remain on that particular person.

But nevertheless.. we shall not let that person have a control over your life.. Or ruin it to such extent.. I admit.. I used to let him do that.. let him have control over me.. but truth shall truly find its way.. and with that.. that made me think.. it made me realize how much of a fool i was.. but one good thing is that.. I was a fool once, twice.. but the third time is wayyy to different... it could be a poison.. good thing.. I am still in my right mind not to do anything.. too drastic.. and this made me realize how much I have been missing..missing my life.. as an individual.. as a sole identity.. Now I am a better person.. bitter... yes.. in a way.. but without the bitterness.. how can you be a better person right?

I dont hate him.. I can never afford to hate such a person as hatred is such aa strong word.. I just despise him.. joke.. Im angry,, of what he had done.. how could he even lie.. even if its only for the sake of friendship right? well.. what has been done is done.. and damage can not be repaired to be the same as new. Forgiveness is possible.. but for now.. I have to start my life.. without memories of him.. hunting me down.. Painful memories that are better forgotten and keep the wonderful memoriess of what HAS been...giving me a reason to smile.. after all the pain has passed me by.

testing the wonders of apple product

2010-08-10T17:01:00.001-07:00

im trying to test my itouch for blogging so it will be easier for me to post my thoughts and not needing to wait till i get a hold of ny pc... and here it is...

i got an ipod touch just last week... sort of an impulsive buyer to that effect... but atleast i am happy with it and loving every inch of it... heheeh...

i finaly manage to find out how to add a pic here using my unit... lol

sabi nga ng facebook ... i like!! hehehe

I was then.. I am am now...

2010-07-31T17:56:00.000-07:00

I know.. I know.. I havent been able to post for quite sometime... been quite busy this month..

Too much had happened for the month of July.. some are just too much to handle.. I've been sick, I've been in pain, I've been crying..I've been worrying, Ive been struggling.. I've been travelling.. I aged, I lost, I moved on, and most importantly, I changed.

I have been sick for the past weeks.. even before our cebu trip.. I guess.. I have been too tired thinking.. worrying and impatiently waiting for nothing..and just when I thought I am feeling a little better.. i didnt expect something is yet to come... 2 days before my cebu trip.. my eyes have been swollen because of crying for some personal reason I ought not to publish. (not that I am not brave enough.. its just that i'd rather not.. as it no longer matters anyway...)...

July 18, we have to wake up early and meet up around 4am so we can catch our flight and not be late and still have time to eat breakfast at the airport... (tikman lang namin ang difference ng jollibee sa labas at loob ng airport.. lol)

around 10am, we met up with our colleagues who were there first and settled our things..and ofcourse, get ready for lunch...

then we had our city tour..courtesy of Yoj's Friend Dax...

after the city tour.. we had to go back to the place where we were staying to get some rest... (we made sure na sulit.. kasi that is the only day magkakasa kasama kami eh.) around 8:30 pm, we met up with another of Yoj's friend Sher and had dessert at the dessert factory... (foodtrip to the max.. kumusta ang diet! waaaaaaa...) lolz..

@mooon cafe..

@dessert factory .. with all the witchy hats :D

After that, we headed back to the room and got some rest.. as the next day, some of our friends would be heading back to Pampanga... Then, there were just the 3 of us left..

After breakfast, we headed to find a resort in Mactan Island, Cebu so we get the chance to have our "beach day". Heard the trip to Bantayan Cebu is wayyyyyyy to long.. though they said its worth the long trip).. then we settled in Portofino and ofcourse.. that is where we made babad.. and pictorial galore... lol... July 21, we went back to Pampanga and waited straight to the office.
During my course of stay there.. I decided to leave everything behind.. all the heartache , bitterness, tears and pain.. and after that trip, indeed, I made sudden changes within myself physically and mentally and most important.. emotionally... I feel more confident with myself.. I have started to love myself more and I'm sure people around me can notice. I started wearing slippers which i dont do at all unless at home (having something different than all other people). I used to be scared that people will judge me because of that.. but now.. I dont simply care what others would say if they see what is different in me. Second, I had a new hair cut.. my hair was cut short.. compared to the one i had.

:)

I also decided to close my doors for possibility of loving again.. and concentrate more on loving myself.. And lastly, I see things more in a positive note. analyzing things and my own perspective.. It like Im telling myself.. its about time... you deserve to be happy.. and being happy doesnt necessarily mean you have to have a special someone. right?

But you really can't be happy for too long.. after a few days, my bro messaged me regarding my mom being rushed to the hospital.. the doctor was thinking it is a possible brain infection. They had to make series of test and get some samples in her spinal cord.. ;(.. but thank God..the results turned out negative. She was already home and we were able to talk to her.. She just needed to rest.. probably.. she is over worked and thinks too much too.. Its very hard to know that the one you love is sick.. and you cant do anything about it.. but God is good..

And now, I'm back to being happy ... I actually like the new me.. new, better, wiser,positive and stronger me.. ;) ...

I am starting a new life.. and I am starting all over again.. no one said it would be easy.. but I know.. He will stay with me all through out.. ;)

Laters..

just when i thought

2010-06-19T19:02:00.000-07:00

What if I told you, i'm going away
Would you be missing me at all?
What if i told you, i just can't stay
Cause I cant bare the to see the pain take its toll

what if i told you; that i love you;
though I kept denying the fact, that we can be together;
Would you let me go, without further ado
Or would you touch my hand and hold it forever?

I never planned to feel this way;
Forgive my heart if I did;
But little did we notice, I won't survive a day;
Without having to see, or text you; though there is no need

I wish you could see, how much i wish you are mine;
Because little that we know, my heart crossed between the line
The line between friendship and love had been eliminated
The boundary I made, that I wish to keep was taken for granted;

But it seems my heart has been too late to realize
That its you I adore, and this feeling came as a surprise
But you seem so happy, with the girl who captured your heart
I'm glad to see you that way, in spite of the pain, that shattered me apart

I guess its time for me to let you go.
Little by little, I'll get by on my own
Perhaps someday, I'll find my future beau;
Someone who can prevent my heart from being alone...

A Visit from Friends :)

2010-05-23T19:52:00.000-07:00

Last Sat, I met up with a few friends.. Yes..friends who I met over the net.... whoever said you cant meet a true person over the net.. I beg to disagree.. As I can attest that friendship can be built even through technology alone.

Anyway.. we went mall hopping shall i say. We first went to Marquee mall as it would be their first time to go there. (acting as a tourguide.. syempre naligaw pa kami..on our way out.. lolz) but ofcourse.. no one can ever buy the memories shared.

We actually had one of our friends experience a make over in the department store and if you can guess who it is.. its the one in red. :D.. kasi sya lang naka "donya make up" samin. Then we ate at Tokyo tokyo.. infairness.. mabilis ang serving ng food.

Kwentuhan galore and of course.. reminicing.. *wink*

We then went to the cinemas hoping to get to see "here comes the bride" but it is not showing there, so we decided to visit SM Clark.

Then, before the movie (which is a good one) definitely a a laugh trip! we went pictorial with the characters outside the cinema while waiting for time to pass.

@ Tokyo Tokyo

At SM Clark

Anyway, I will defintely miss that bonding time.. as one of my friends will be leaving for Korea soon.

Till next time TF friends :)

Puerto Galera

2010-05-08T20:59:00.000-07:00

Summer is definitely here! Its has been a while since me and my colleague planned a Subic trip and it hasnt been pushed through because of certain reasons. Just when we are all settled and all we need are reservations. GUESS WHAT! all are fully booked!! WHAT TO DO??? Change of location! Our planned Subic trip ended up in no other place than Puerto Galera.. Indeed, the unplanned trips turns up to be so much better. Met some new friends and had a great bonding with friends over the ever famous Mindoro sling... *wink*

While waiting at the airport..

Mindoro Sling.. the drink that literally kicked me out of my senses! :D

going home and back to reality.. tired but fun..

Truly a memorable trip..

NEXT STOP : CEBU!

2010-04-27T18:25:00.000-07:00

I've always been hesistant to buy things/items over the internet. After all, can you blame me for doing so? Aside from the fact, I know how it works on the back end... anyway, I was browsing for a mini laptop bag one day, and I came across one seller in the ebay site selling handmade laptop bags. It does not appear like a laptop bag but a casual lady bag. which I prefer so as not to appear I am bringing my lappy along with me right? Anyway, you are also given the option to choose the colour of the butterfly for the bag (also a separate design for a big flower is also available. They also have a separate product for bigger lappy (12 -15 inches) mine is just for the 10" version. just want to share it with you.

It came with a accessory of a cute little flower.

Here is the actual bag

and here is the close up version of the butterfly :)

I chose the color Royal Blue and pink combination. So girly no? not the usual me.. but its nice.. I so love it..

shattered dreams...

2010-04-04T01:17:00.000-07:00

If youre not the one for me..
Why am I feeling this way
I know for a fact.. we could never be..
But you are the one.. who can brighten my day

A simple text.. or the sound of your voice
Makes my heart beat fast.. i could hear it above the noise
What is it in you that I can never resist..
My head says no.. but my heart still insist.

Everytime you tell me, how much I mean to you..
that you still feel the same, the way that I do
It makes my heart sing yet it puzzles me too
Why you have to tell me this.. is it because, your intentions are true?

We know for a fact, that we can never be together
With her by your side.. I know that would be forever..
I am a friend, and i'll always be here..
No matter what happens, I'll always be near..

So spare me from loving you more than I already do
Don't tell me things, useless it would be for me and you..
I dont know what to feel, whenever you say its true
That your feelings never changed.. and you never want to see me blue..

I wish its that easy.. for me to say.. I love you too..
Without having to doubt or fear.. that you have someone new..
Cause my heart has been fragile, it had always bled for you..
I wish I could have you.. a dream I know.. will never come true..

Bidding Goodbye..

2010-03-29T11:57:00.000-07:00

I miss the times you are with me
and the times you make me smile..
Inspite of where.. your heart must be..
You will always be a love worthwhile..

I've loved you for the longest time..
And all the while.. I've wished youre mine..
But not all dreams,, are made to come true..
Some are just there.. to keep me from being blue..

You'll always be the love I never had..
Someone who had always hurt me so bad..
Someone who washed away my fears..
Someone who had caused me all of these tears..

Sometimes, I just can't understand fate..
It makes you happy you found your mate..
But little did you know.. he is not meant for you..
He is just here to show.. not all fairy tales come true

Often my thoughts, would be reminded of you..
Thinking pleasant things.. the memories that have given hue..
The wonderful smile.. I see in your eyes..
Blissful and serene.. everything is just so nice..

I miss the touch of your hand close to mine..
The warmth of your stare that melts me inside..
The times when you say.. you are oh so divine..
the times when in silence, you are still by my side..

Someday I know, this will have to end..
Facing reality.. that you are just a friend..
Who loves me too.. but not the way I do..
I'm bidding goodbye.. for a love that never grew..

Own thoughts..

2010-03-25T09:55:00.000-07:00

When words are being said.. they can never be erased. Most of the time.. words are more powerful than of a weapon. Physical wound can always be healed but emotional pain and wounds are harder to cure.Sometimes they never will be..

Learn to appreciate the people around you.. the simple things that they do.. or one day.. just with one word.. you could make the biggest mistake of your life.

I am saying this .. because.. I guess this is what I am undergoing now.. right now.. I feel so abused.. not physically.. but emotionally. Its is painful to feel that even the person you think would never let you down, failed you. failed you BIG TIME.

After all this time.. I still go unappreciated.. its like I was never a great part of your life.. a big help in your daily life.. You are trying to make me feel I am nothing at all.. If that is the case.. I will let you prove it.. its about time I think of myself as you always thought I do.. Sacrifices has been made.. but you never heard from me.. I gave everything I have and you think.. its not enough.. You have no right to question me.. where I go, spend my time and money.. because I worked for it. You have no right to tell me I should do this and that.. I am old enough to know my limitations and my own capabilities..

I do hope you know.. I will be doing this not because I want to take revenge.. but I want you to realize how much you have hurt me.. how low you have made me feel.. how much sacrifice I have been giving.. for you.. I want you to see my worth in your life.. I promised my self I will be tougher.. I will be stronger.. I guess its about time.. to live on my own.. but I hope you will always remember.. I love you dearly.. and I miss you... :'(

Until When

2010-03-25T09:15:00.000-07:00

Every morning.. I get awaken.. by the cry of a young child.. being "disciplined" by her father. It seems to me.. that she always seems to do the wrong thing. I would even hear the father say.. "you didnt do as I told you to do.. wash the dishes, take care of your brother, why are you teasing your sister, why didnt you do this.. why didnt you do that.. " In the first place, is it your child's obligation to do the dishes and look after her younger siblings.. WHILE you just lie.. watch television all day? drink all you want.. and simply be a burden to everyone in the community? As a father.. you ought to be the provider. You should be an example to your kids.. and there never was a day you portrayed that role. Do you really think you have the right to even touch your kid? I feel pissed off especially when I see kids with bruises.. yes.. real bruises caused by the father's way of discipline. If this is the way you were raised.. shouldnt you be more considerate with your children? If life treats you bad because of every mistake you have done.. why let your kids suffer from your temper. They are just kids, yes.. they maybe your kids.. they are just your kids.. their life isnt your property and you have no right to abuse them because you are their father. Dont you think.. it would be more painful to hear your child say someday "You were never a father..". I know.. I am not a parent yet. But simply hearing those words.. would be like a knife stabbed into my heart.. Well.. unless ofcourse.. there is no conscience in you.. I do hope you will just wake up from a long sleep.. realizing how important your children are. and not take advantage of the fact.. that just because you are an adult and their father.. you have the right.. to just do whatever you want, even if it means hurting your child physically, and emotionally. And I do hope that when that child grows up.. she will still have the respect for you.. a respect.. I know you don't deserve.

PS: Its a good thing I have great parents.. and I am proud to have them. And I would never do anything, to make them ashamed of me.

12 Better Explanations of LOVE....

2010-02-19T05:41:00.000-08:00

Here's another one...

1) Don't turn your back to love when it's already in front of you,
Don't drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you'll think
again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you.

2) In Love, think things first over if you're sure about how you feel,
Don't fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, 'coz it will
hurt real bad if things don't go the way you want them to be.

3) It's an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts
to say "hi" to the one he likes, days to admire, weeks to miss the
person, months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye...

4) Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone
who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who
could also love you in return.

5) Love isn't something we hold, it is something we set free, It's
not something we just do, but it's something we don't imagine to be.
Lastly, it's not something we choose, it chooses us...

6) The scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt. The
scariest thing about getting hurt is not being able to love again. The
scariest thing about not loving again is being alone forever.

7) When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you,
for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead
end, use your head to lead you back home.

8) When you truly care for someone, you don't look for faults, you
don't look for answers, you don't look for mistakes. Instead, you fight
for the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses.

9) It's better to lose your pride to the one you love, than lose
your loved one to your useless pride.

10) Love is .........
not " it's your fault ", but " i'm sorry ",
not " where are you ? ", but " i'm here ",
not " how could you ? ", but " i understand,
not " i wish you were here ", but " i'm thankful you are ".

11) The beginning of love is to let those we love be just themselves,
and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the
reflection of ourselves we find in them.

12) If a relationship is truly meant for you, your love will find a
way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.

Which would you rather be? Be the one whose heart be filled or be the one who will fill someone's heart with joy?

Lessons of Love

2010-02-19T05:28:00.000-08:00

This was an email sent to me years ago.. as in literally years ago.. way back Sun, 4 Mar 2007 1:59:31 PM Eastern Standard Time. it was in my old email that i just happen to open and check recently... just want to share it.

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and
when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love
someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you Love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's
called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It
should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that's why it's called falling in LOVE..............

Denial

2010-01-18T03:40:00.000-08:00

i tried to pretend not to be there
and show you how much I care
Cause I know that deep inside,
You will only see me as a friend behind

I tried to pretend that I'm glad for you,
Whenever you talk about someone new
But deep inside of me, I'm dying
Wishing I'm the one you are longing

I joke around my friends, pretending I'm okay
Showing that there is someone who brightens my day
Little did they know,its a role that I portray
Cause everytime i'm with you, I just cant pretend your away

I tried to pretend that I don't love you..
But inside my heart, i know I do..
But I can't afford to be hurt again..
Cause I know, I can never have you...

This is it!

2010-01-04T06:58:00.000-08:00

Hi Friendships,

As a gift for myself.. I was finally able to buy the MINI laptop I dreamnt of having.... it may not be the exact one I mentioned earlier, but its still what i want ... another investment for me :)

syempre.. to follow agad ang router.. para todo todo ang pagiging wireless.. I'm loving every minute of using this piece.

mas ganado mag blog nyan.. hhehehe

Happy New Year!

2009-12-27T17:37:00.000-08:00

Another year is fast approaching to an end, parang kailan lang, one year had already flew by. Where have all the days gone?

I wonder what have i done for the whole year that made it significant? Is there anything to look forward to for the year 2010?

The past year had been full of tears, laughters, new friendships and endeavors. Something new, something old, something nonsense, and something worth remembering. What's in it for next year I wonder?

I can only hope it will be a better year than what I had than this year ... but ofcourse, I would never forget the good memories I have had and the lessons I have learned from the not so good experiences.

Anyway, I wish everyone a happy new year. May it be more a fruitful one. :)

Until When

2009-12-25T07:00:00.000-08:00

why does emptiness fills me;
inspite of everything that surrounds me
could it be because the only thing i wanted;
Could never surpass anything that is branded?

It has been quite a while I've lived my life alone
All on my own, without a "YOU", I have grown
But now it seems, ive have been searching for something
Inspite of all, of what i have been having

Could it be due, to the season of giving,
Or maybe because of the love I've been receiving
From people around me, though inspite of this
I can't seem to have, the most important bliss

I guess maybe its time,for me to finally set in
that I need to find the love, that seems to be held within
I don't know where to find him, I dont know where to look,
Could he be a total stranger, for this heart of mine he took

Could it be someone, I have known all my life
Or someone who I wanted, but I know I could never have
When will be the time, I will finally be with him forever
Does he even know, I exist, nor should leave me never?

I hope he would come, while I am still capable of loving
For the day would come, I'll get tired of waiting
If that happens, I will never be so sure
That I can still fall, for someone whose love would be pure...

Coming Soon

2009-12-23T06:36:00.000-08:00

As mentioned on my previous email, once i get my 13th month, I'll hopefully be getting my long over due Christmas gift for myself.

Soon, this will be mine :

http://www.hp.com/united-states/campaigns/mini1000/index.html#/Mini110Overview/

well.. something like this atleast..

Anyway, I hope everyone will have a happy holidays.. I know a friend of mine is. Even is he has to spend his Christmas in the hospital, he is happy.. because his wife just gave birth to a healthy baby boy. (bagong inaanak :D )

As for me, well.. we just have to make the most of it. Enjoy what we have. Count our blessings. And enjoy what life has to offer.

As of now, there isn't any plans for the holidays. Will be at home most of the time, bonding with my nieces and nephew...

And the good thing is, we have a 4 day straight vacation. And I will definitely get alot of rest. I havent been feeling so well lately. Feeling ko high blood pressure na to.. tsk tsk)

Anyway, hope everyone enjoys the holidays and enjoy your new year too..

Christmas Spirit

2009-12-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

Pasko naaaaaaaaaa!!! heheh.. its been cold these past few days.. i can feel the cold air. Christmas is indeed just around the corner. there are not much of a plan since we don't really celebrate Christmas (being a non catholic) but as a family, ofcourse we still do. Its been a while since we spent Christmas together with my family, Our last Christmas celebration together as a family was since last December 2003. Since my parents had to leave the country December 2004. Its been a while that I was with them, and thank God for the minds who invented the internet, we get to chat and talk everytime we both are available. What we usually do is go online before midnight the 24th, and basically, anticipate the Christmas morn. Not much presents though this year, not like when i used to work on my previous company where they give out GCs as "bonus" but as long a we are all happy right? and of course, I still have my sister and my makulit little nephew and nieces, what else could I ask for. I am also looking forward for my 13 month pay, hopefully, it will be given soon. I'm planning to buy something i have been longing to have. A notebook mini. that is IF i will be given the means...

Just recently, my mom and my brother had purchased 2 of these laptop mini.. (inunahan pa ko.. kahit ako ang unang nagbalak bumili) anyway, i even asked my mom to just send it to me instead.. lolz. Ofcourse, its for their personal use. I plan to buy one soon too, and it would consume my whole 13 month pay plus a Swipe for the rest of the expense.

Anyway, I had been busy at work, so I wasn't really able to update my blog as planned but i do check it every now and then. Everything has been a chaos at work. And its a good thing, I had my time off just for the day as I would be attending my niece' concert (a concert held by their school). Tomorrow, will be another day.Looking forward on learning something new.

Got to go now.. about to prepare for the concert. :).. Till next time :)

New Place

2009-10-31T17:51:00.000-07:00

Hi :

Well, finally we moved in our temporary work place yesterday. Yes, its just a temporary movement as yet. The new office will be ready, hopefully in a few months. Its been a tiring week in spite of us having a 1 day off on a Friday. We have had some schedule adjustments, Monday, we are in the usual schedule but since the DST was moved, our schedule was also moved one hour later. Wednesday, we went home at 11pm, and have to report to work 9am the next day. Thursday, we were on morning shift, and Friday was our off.

I took advantage of the time to meet up with some friends for old times sake. It has been several months before we were able to see each other again, so kwentuhan galore.(great bonding) After that, since its a "street jam" night (tigtigan terakan king dalan) night, my present colleagues decided to attend the said event. Although we went home earlier than expected due to "unavoidable circumstances".

Saturday, we went to work at 11 am, at our new office. It is "almost done" when we got there. So some things had to be patched up before we fully operate. It is bigger than what we previously had. We now have our own office comfort room, own room for our pantry, own offices for the bosses.and admin peeps. Too bad, I dont have a picture of the office as yet. Will be posting some, once I got the chance. I also have a new cheating arrangement (good thing, they changed my seat place than the original seat plan, my evil side could get out easily... (evil laugh). Its more spacious, but I will definitely miss my old seat :D. I was in the almost corner, with no one seated on my other side.. anyway.. I can't wait for the permanent building that we will have. It is due, most likely by December this year.

Next Week, we will be back on our old schedule, atleast, we could get more rest than we had this week. I'll definitely keep you posted. :)

Till laters friendships :)

2009-10-13T07:55:00.000-07:00

hmm.. I was experimenting with my phone editing images of myself. I was trying to post them here, but it seems there is a problem with the images.. or simply maybe, the picture just does not want to be posted here. lolz.. anyway, here is a glimpse of my recently edited photo.. :D

edited the back ground for a better effect ... :D.

Anyway, Its been a while since I was able to write here. Been quite busy at work. And also been feeling not so good. but nevertheless, I am still here.. lol

We just had an announcement that we are moving our office to a different location. farther than what we have right now. Well. new environment eh.. Will definitely take some pictures of the new office soon.. hehehe...

Anyway, till next post guys :)

someday

2009-10-01T08:17:00.000-07:00

Feeling sentimental, I look out the window;
Rain pouring down hard and flows down below
As the drops keep hitting the ground
Pain and memories keeps hunting me around

I always thought, these would no longer be recalled;
Buried painful memries as if it would be the story dared to be told
But I was wrong to assume that everything is alright;
That I was able to move on and kept you out of my sight

I just then realize,the memories that I kept inside hiding
Are the ones, I ought to let go so i can keep on going
Starting a new, from scratch and out of nothing
So I can live my life, and start a beginning of something

I know someday, I'll come to that stage;
Where in the painful memories will come at age
And a new found love will come along
And bring new memories that will last for long

I wish that would be soon, I could only hope for the best
But no rush in finding love, as I want it to last
Forever, I shall look forward, to put my mind at rest;
That someday till forever, my future will never be my past...

Goodbye ...

2009-09-24T19:46:00.000-07:00

I just learned the news yesterday, A friend of mine is resigning from my former company, when I asked him why, he said he is going abroad.

Many of my friends has already tried their luck abroad. Sadly, the opt to leave their families here but of course with the good intention for the sake of their families as well..

Nakakasad lang isipin na they are aspiring to go abroad just to earn good money kasi.. SOBRANGGGGGGGG pressure na sa work dito sa Pinas and I would understand how it feels to be homesick when all you wanted is to go home and be with your family. (been there.. done that)

Hayzz, anyway, I would not rather pose a picture of my friend, baka iba pang maisip ng iba pag nakita nila.. hehehe..

Clue : this person gave me a gift nung last last birthday ko..(hehehe..) at naka publish pa yon sa previous notes ko..

Anyway, goodluck my friend.. on your future endeavor... may you find the fulfillment you are looking for.. I'll see you when I see you. I will surely miss you ...

Laugh trip

2009-09-24T19:42:00.000-07:00

Thought I'll just share a few video shared by one of my colleagues..

LAUGH TRIP kung LAUGH TRIP! :D

enjoy guys..

scraps of my mind

2009-09-21T08:19:00.000-07:00

i want to go to a place.. far away from here.. here where memories of you are everywhere i go..
Here where my hearts keeps getting lost.. inspite of the vicinity that I can practically know..

All the while, i thought i was over you.. all the while I thought I have moved on..
But the memories of the past keep coming back.. whether of laughters and tears that within me it has grown

Even in my dreams, in the very heart of me.. there is still the longing I try to keep and conceal
The deeper I try to keep you within, the more it seems there is something more to reveal

scraps of my mind ... i havent had the luxury of time completing it..

In my Life ... something is missing...

2009-09-19T09:14:00.000-07:00

Hi guys,

Just got home from the Cinema. We watched "In my life" movie of Vilma Santos, John Lloyd Cruz and Luis Manzano.

I would definitely recommend this movie. Its not really a heavy drama, infact, half of the movie, we were actually laughing. Cute, hilarious scenes and as well as romantic scenes.

The story revolves Vilma Santos, playing as a mother to her real and reel life son, Luis Manzano who is gay and is in a relationship with John Lloyd Cruz. It deals alot regarding family matters, career, and love.

I would recommend you watch it. Rather than me making kwento :)

Anyway, below is a trailer of the movie. got it from you tube :D

Anyway, here is the OST of the movie

In my life

There are places I remember
all my life, though some have changed.
Some forever, not for better.
And some have gone, and some remain.

All these places have their moments
with lovers and friends I still can't recall.
Some are dead and some are living.
In my life I love them all.

But of all these friends and lovers,
there is no one compares with you.
And these memories lose their meaning
when I think of love as something new.

Though I know I'll never ever lose affection
for people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them.
In my life I love you more.

Though I know I'll never ever lose affection
for people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think of them.
But in my life I loved you more.
I love you more.
I love you more.

The movie actually made me feel nostalgic as I miss my mom more.. :( . Wish she was here as well, so we could watch the movie together. Im sure we will both cry.. :D

new playlist

2009-09-16T10:27:00.000-07:00

Hi guys,

I also decided to change my playlist.. Something of more upbeat tone. These songs make me want to dance. not that I dance good. i just dance for the sake of dancing. I'm most positive the video posted is a better dancer than me. (chuckle). Anyway, enjoy the songs :)

Skype :)

2009-09-16T09:52:00.000-07:00

This week had been a headache.. as early as now.. at home and especially at work...

Well, I do understand rules are rules.. BUT no one will find out unless someone would spill the beans right?

What am I talking about you may ask.. Its a rule in our office that was addressed just because of someone I'd rather not mention.

Non-business related activities are not prohibited unless caught.. well.. at work, we are allowed to have access to skype, well, atleast for back end peeps, as we are constantly communicating with the big boss and the people in UK warehouse, so we need that as means of communication.

Well, I must admit, there are some instances that we talk about issues within the company, some we laugh about, some we get angry about and some we are just fond of making fun of. Not that we are directly mocking the person (call me mean.. but that person is just worth mocking because of her well known attitude).

Anyway, ofcourse, this particular person has to tell her beloved, the unfair practice of having a Skype account for backend, while she can't have one for herself. What is her need for it? nothing.. perhaps chatting with her friends and beloved all day without having to work anymore? then if that is the case.. why not just resign??? anyway.. sustentado naman ata eh..

So since she can take advantage of the situation, she just don't want us to be happy and have a chit chat our own cause she knows, it could be her we are talking about. while she thinks she can do everything she wants just because. And I guess.. NOT doing her job well is part of it.

Well, I hope she's happy, cause that is the only thing that she can do. One thing that she can never do, is destroy the bonded friendship that me and my colleagues had gained with or without Skype. We can still have our fun times without office issues interfering.

So now, all you can read in our skype conversations? EMOTICONS! :D and my signature emoticon |( (rolling eyes) lolz.

I just need to vent out.. and this is my way of doing so..

Again : bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan, ala akong pakielam ...

(that is if she can comprehend well with what i am trying to put across.)

My Very Own ...

2009-09-13T01:59:00.000-07:00

I just purchased my very own Ipod Nano Video!! (uy, yung orig no.. hahhaa). I was at the mall with 2 of my collegues and we were canvassing prices for the iPods as I have been eyeing to but one for 2 weeks now. I know I already had a phone with Mp3 and all, but ofcourse, I would like to still conserve the batteries for my phone usage alone. hahaha.

Anyway, Thanks to credit card, I was able to purchase it.. hahah.. yes..i used a credit card. I can't afford to buy it one time big time. or else, I would not eat for one month. edi pumayat ako.. kumusta naman yon.. LOL. While canvassing, we were asking regarding their terms and if they accept credit card payments. They said for certain credit cards, they are accepting monthly payment (Just like how credit cards are really being paid.. (3-6-12 installment payments) and they just would not accept my card as they would prefer a straight payment for the particular card that I have.

Then a bubble thought : whats the use of credit card, if you could pay it cash out? duh! (rolling eyes) hehehe )

Anyway, we came across a store that does accept credit card payments (12 months basis) and good thing they got the color that I want.. BLUE.. (bet you thought its pink.. hahha).

Anyway, just want to share the picture i searched in google, it looks exactly like it, the color in the picture and the unit itself. Right now, I'm still trying to learn everything about it and discovering the wonders of it.. LOL. I just discovered the "shake feature" lol

Ang ganda diba? well for me. I do think, i deserve it naman. I work hard for me to get to buy the things i want and not just asking money from my parents. Its the least I could do for myself right? Now, happy nanaman ako.. (chuckle).

Next purchase would take a while siguro, I'm planning to get a notebook pc (di yung sa bookstore no.. :D)

Anyway, till next post

Welcome back Nahj

2009-09-10T09:47:00.000-07:00

Hi Fellow bloggers..

Whew.. its about time I am able to post something here.. its been a while that i havent written.. and to all those who message me.. thank you for visiting my blog. Those that wants link exchange, please post your comment. I will be updating this from now on. I cant promise I will be posting something new everyday, but I will keep it updated this time. These past months have been really busy. Sa work, sa bahay, at sa kung saan saan pa... Let me just update you on what had happened for the past 3 months

Finally, I was able to go to one of the well known beaches here in the Philippines.. my dream vacation came true (next to Paris of course ). I was able to go to Boracay. I know, you may say its rainy season.. but surprisingly, it isnt even raining... (thanks sa itlog na alay.. LOL). Had so much fun.. and I'd like to go back there.. if time and money permits.. heheh...

Another thing that kept me busy is work. Issues, work loads, Overtime when needed and bonding with collegues :D. Headaches, laughters and bloopers. Oh yes, even tears.. (oo.. pinaiyak kasi ako nung boss ko.. hmmp.. LOL). I met new friends. Learned new skills. Aba, san ka ba nakakita ng company na all in one ka. Agent, QA, Trainer. all in one. Sabi ko nga, pwede na ko mag apply ng trainer kasi, I've experience training newbies sa work. heheh. Meron din time na I was applying for a position sa work namin, but got rejected. I want to try to practice what I have learned, but I was not given the chance. Alam nyo anong reason nila? KASI DAW .... well ..whatever excuse they may have, however they say it with sugar coating, no matter how they make it sound that you are better off sa current postion mo dahil ganito ganyan.. , it is still the same. "You did not pass my expection for that position." Hayz, how can I prove myself kung di nman ako pagbibigayan diba?. Oh well, That would not stop me anyway. I'll just keep trying once opportunity knocks.

We also had our first year anniversary with the company I work with. And I am almost a year there too. I will have my anniversary this coming October 1. Whew.. how time flies so fast.

I am also so hooked up with facebook games. I have farmtown, Pet society, fish world and many more. I have so many applications that some of them are actually being neglected.

I also celebrated my 28th birthday.. (yes that is my real age) last July. Getting older. Getting wiser. but still young at heart. Still the simple pretty little me.. Hahaha..

I also got my hair rebonded. And yes, mahaba na ulit sya. unlike the last picture I had posted. (wink). Mas gumanda nanaman ako.. (bawal kumontra.. blog ko to)

Pretty much that wraps everything up.

To Anonymous, thank you for dropping by. Wish I could know who you are. Sana man lang nagiwan ka ng kahit man lang pangalan or atleast your site. and thank you for supporting my sentimental side. I havent had much time doing some poetry. I guess i am still waiting for that inspiration to hit me again.. kakamiss din magsulat. :(

To all my blogger friends.. to all those I have known through blogging, thank you for the continued support.

Till my next post :)

relax

2009-09-10T09:30:00.000-07:00

Hi guys..

I know its been a while..anyway.. check this video out.. pamparelax.. ;)

I came across this video just the other day. I was downloading games on my phone and decided to check out the video clips.. and this is what I saw.. .

I am not a fan of koreanovela or asian novelas whatsoever.. this song is even unknown to me until recently, when one of my colleagues told me it was her LSS (last song syndrome) and so.. I pretty much hear this everyday and it seems like its the new national anthem LOL.

Hope you enjoy the video as much as i did.

Have fun guys.. mwahhhhhh

Thank you Lord

2009-06-14T03:17:00.000-07:00

Hi friends,

Another video was shared to me by a good friend. It is very touching indeed. Check it out.

Check it out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0DxlJWJ_WfA

indeed.. isa lang comment ko.. learn to appreciate whatever we have.. cause some people who dont have these are more productive than we are..

2009-05-30T19:50:00.000-07:00

Hi blogger friends,

I know.. its been a while since i updated this.. been really busy.. anyway.. just want to share this.. a friend from facebook shared this video.. and thought.. this may as well serve as a warning....

drive safely

WARNING : some scenes may not be suitable for weak stomachs.. lolz

Birthday Tag..

2009-03-16T19:44:00.000-07:00

No no.. its not my birthday yet..but I was tagged by Mommy Ads for this.. So.. Here are the rules..

1. Make a list of what you want for your Birthday.
2. The list should be 10 numbers.
3. Include the image of this Award on your Post.
4. Give it to 10 Friends of yours. (syempre.. sasaway ako dito.. this is for grabs to everyone.. para naman makalist ng birthday wishes as early as now.. kaya.. "parinig parinig" heheh,..)

Anyway, here is my top 10
1. Laptop (oh.. asa!)
2. vacation treat away from home
3. a bag I saw somewhere.. na sana.. magsale naman..(hahaha)
4. A Television (or entertainment package would do) LOL
5. A gift from a special someone
6. Anything na taos puso.. di naman ako maselan

Whew.. hirap magisip.. some are realistic goals.. and some.. well.. we can never tell.. baka may mabuting loob na magbigay.. hahah.. I only listed 6.. thats is all I can think of. Di naman ako more on material diba.. its the thought that counts.. kahit a simple text or phone call.That is still gift for me..

yon lang.. so ano pa hinihintay nyo mga friends.. list down na.. chance to express what you want :)

Just when we thought...

2009-03-09T17:39:00.000-07:00

This is from an email I got from a friend. It was touching.. and just want to share it with you.

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'

The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'

The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom,

I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day.. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.

Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone... I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

I must.. I must..

2009-03-03T16:37:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine texted me early this week.. She was asking if I could be part of her entourage this coming may 28. So I said yes.

So since i will be wearing a gown, i have to look slim (para naman maganda ang lola nyo diba?) so I told my self. I have to lose weight.. hayzz. .ang hirap naman mag diet no..

anyway.. may proof ako..

syempre, after jogging..break fast naman sa perfect loaf.. heheh..

eto food ng kasama ko.. :)

so ayan.. day 1 jogging.. still ongoing ..bukas nanaman.. day 2 na..wish me luck friendships :)

random thoughts

2009-02-22T08:48:00.000-08:00

here i am again,
up in the middle of the night
keep thinking of ways
to get you out of my mind

thoughts of you kept pouring in
as much as i want you out
keep thinking somethings amiss
and i cant seem to figure out

i know i should forget you..
its no longer right to keep on going
torturing myself by reminiscing
those memories that now should be gone

my head is in a daze
my mind is spinning in circles
cant help myself but wonder
when will this ever stop

will i ever get over you?
a question that keeps sinking in
my mind keeps saying i will
but my heart begs to disagree

i wish its just that easy
to dictate this heart of mine
to erase all those memories
that you have left behind

its a cloudy day!

2009-02-22T00:54:00.000-08:00

Me and a colleague was on our way to work.. when we saw the clouds ahead of us.. kung sana maganda ang camera ko.. maganda ang kuha.. but for the mean time, pagtiayagaan.. :D

on the other hand,

just feeling sentimental last night.. and sa pagtitrip ko.. ayan.. pictures ng bear.. lol.. it was actually a gift given.. by the person who hurt me the most.. waaaa...

still I cherished that more than anything..

ayan.. just an update.. till next post :)

PreValentine :)

2009-02-13T10:44:00.000-08:00

Valentines day.. is just an ordinary day for most singles.. especially for me.. but as small as our office, they see to it, that they celebrate every special occasion.. with even a little something for all...

At work today, we were "forced" to wear the color "red". its a good thing, its just the 13th.. and not the real Feb 14 date! ..

Anyway, we have had a small program earlier together with the whole company (which consist of atleast 20 peeps! hehehe...

We had this game which we were each given a questionnaire about love life of each person. Then the Head will be the one to collect all those questionnaires. Then, the game master had provided us a quiz (parang trivia) to the whole group. (that was for 1 week. (3 questions a day for 5 days.) And today was the "revelation" day! ... We had fun guessing who's romantic experience is who's. It was a fun activity and we even learned more about the people around us.

And last but not the least!!.. we have cake!!

Syempre.. since feel ko daw ang red.. nag pa pic muna.. bago makadating sa office :D

Too bad may bad news.. wala pa daw sweldo.. sa monday palang daw.. WAAAA.. lol..

Anyway, Happy Valentines Everyone!!!! To all couples.. enjoy your day!.. sa mga singles na gaya ko.. TARA! TAGAY TAYO! Celebration.. for freedom, peace and love to come! heheh :)..till next time! :).. mwahh

Enchanting Tagaytay

2009-02-13T09:35:00.000-08:00

After long time! finally a vacation... I was actually invited by my previous collegue for an over night trip.. to tagaytay. But ofcourse, first stop is in Enchanted Kingdom.

Most of my friends are first timers sa enchanted unlike me, LOL. Still the place brings out the child in me. I love the rides (even the scariest ones!!!) Yes, I rode the SPACE SHUTTLE again and again! (only one per visit ofcourse). I enjoyed most is the picture taking galore (being a camera addict and all). Here are only some of the pics taken.:)

We even rode the grand rapids twice and got all soak after. Then, off we go to Tagaytay! after an hour or so drive, we went to the transient my friends saw over the net.

The house was WOW! I couldn't help but imagine my self owning such a house. Some are the pictures of the venue itself. Aside from the strong breeze the place is perfect for vacation purposes. away from the city and the view is so calming.

All I can say, i was tired, but i did enjoy that trip. But most of all.. I enjoyed the company of my friends.. whom I missed so much when I left the company I used to work with...

Love you guys.. mwahhhhhhhhh.. till next trip :)

Cute Blogger Award

2009-01-29T10:19:00.000-08:00

Arlene gave me this cutie award.. so am i cute or am i not.. (most likely.. she is referring to my blog.. lolz)

1. Each blogger must post these rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Bloggers that are tagged need to write ten facts about themselves. You need to choose ten people to tag and list their names.

So, here are my ten, weird, random, little known facts or habits about myself.

1. i am addicted to gadgets
2. i am a camera addict
3. I am an ice coffee addict yet I rarely drink hot coffee
4. I am a frustrated singer and dancer
5. I love texting, chatting and talking
6. I'm a hopeless romantic
7. I dreamnt of my "Dream Boy" and I still remember his face though I never met him yet
8. I am a touchy person.
9. I love reading books.. but I never seem to have time finishing them
10. I am in love with Papa Piolo.. hehehe

I will just be passing it to everyone.. feel free to post your own list.. and inform me.. so I can comment.. heheh

new look?

2009-01-29T10:05:00.001-08:00

Hi peeps.. just an update.. wala.. gusto ko lang magpacute.. heheh...

o diba.. long hair na ko. .yehey.. lol..

no update much this week.. still the same pretty me.. hehe.. nga pala..may sun cell number na ko.. hehe.. (so what big deal!) kaso.. ang problema, wala akong text mate.. or phone pal.. LOL!

Lately, maraming work.. si bossing kasi.. stress nya ko.. pero ok lang. .bait naman yon..

Ay meron pa pala.. kailan lang, nagpadala kami ng magic sing sa dad ko.. kaso.. di pala nya magagamit.. its broken! waaaaaa.. ngayon.. papadala nila ulit dito sa Pinas.. hayzzz...kaasar naman.. tinest naman namin.. ngayon. .sira pagdating dun..:(

anyway.. thats all .. update update :)

Assumptions

2009-01-23T08:44:00.000-08:00

Here i am again,struggling within me
The feeling i never really thought I have for you
I used to say, this will never be
more than just friendship that was then full of hue

You came around, just when I needed a friend
Someone to talk to, someone to make me smile
You treat me so special,and with that we truly blend
You would even say you'd run an extra mile

Many times, I tried to stay away from you
Cause I was starting to feel special deep inside
You may have shown me, i am special, for you too
Telling me your looking forward to always be by my side

But everything seems to be different
For what ever reason, I am not aware of
I tried to question myself and I started to be hesitant
Of the feelings you have for me is truly not enough

Perhaps those simple gestures are merely just acts of kindness
Maybe I've made assumptions, perhaps the feeling could be the same
Was I really assuming? Could all those just be blindness?
Or maybe.. just maybe..all is just part of your game

I will always wonder what could have been if we tried
Would we be more happy, if you have just stayed by my side
But nevertheless, all is in vain now
Leaving me pain, for this feelings cause I have to bid goodbye.

- nahj_12

just an expression.. just feeling senti.. just want to share.. :)

Fabulous Award

2009-01-23T08:28:00.000-08:00

Got this award from collynn, my first award for the year.. hehehe.. Thanks sis..

5 addictions daw.. then pass on to 5 fabulous blogs

1. addicted to cellphones! hehe
2. addicted to chocolates... just like my sis
3. addicted to starbucks coffee (java chip) yummy
4. addicted to pictures! hahahah..
5. addicted to chatting.. :D

Well.. that is BASICALLY me!

5 blog awardees?

Siyempre silang lahat para di bias.. hehehe.. love all ur blogs.. feel free to do so.. mwahhh

life oh life.. heheh

2009-01-14T09:02:00.000-08:00

Well.. lately.. i really am not feeling well,maybe due to cold weather, or most likely because Its just now i had a rest from the graveyard shift that I feel so weak.. weak in a sense na sakitin ako lately...

During the holidays, I had some mild asthma attacks.. yet i still go to work and do OT's. Last week, I had the colds and fever. Now, I feel pain in my throat.. Tonsilitis!! waaa.. sabi ko nga.. kung kailan di ako masyado nag cocalls at di back to back ang calls, ngayon ako nagkakaganito.. hayzzz...Once advantage of this though? I will be force to cut short with my meals. hirap kasi lumunok.. so madadiet na ko nito.. hahahaha... I have also been experiencing back pains. Tapos ang lamig pa.. brrrrrr... sarap ng may kayakap. .hahaha..

nga pala.. nagkasched ako ng date with my ultimate love life.. kaso.. wala.. ayoko nalang magcomment.. hahhaha.. chance ko na ngang lasingin sya at angkinin.. kaso, di ako binigyan ng chance ni Lord. Toinks.. anyway.. time to move on.. maghanap na daw ako ng iba. lalo na.. malapit na ang valentines day. Sus..

Speaking of Valentines day, Just to share.. na miss ko lang college dabarkads ko. Dati, every valentines.. instead of having a date like a "real date". ka date ko mga friendships ko.heheh.. we were group of 6. Lahat babae, lahat single. At kung meron man may papa, mauna muna kami.. we used to go tusok tusok sa kanto ng school, eating fishballs, hotdogs and the like.. tapos.. punta kami sa quadrangle ng nepo, then dun kami magkukwentuhan.. hayzz.. i miss them badly.. some have gone abroad and some are just busy.. (like me) lolz..

This valentines day kaya? palagay nyo may date ako? hhahhah..kung meron man.. malalaman nyo din.. pero sa ngayon.. palipasin muna ang January. Dami kaya work loads. feeling ko kadate ko.. work.. hahhaha..naku, saturday night pa nman yon.. lolz ..

hmmm.. ano pa nga ba? pasensya na nga pala sa mga friendship.. matagal nanaman ako bago naka post ng bagong article..been really busy.. boarding house na nga lang itong bahay. hahaha.. .

anyway, till here na muna.

nga pala.. share lang ako ng pics ko nung dapat may date ako with my love of my life.. so mega prepare ako.. nasayang lang effort ko.. hahhaha

o diba.. nag effort na walang effort.. hahaha

and nagkareunion pala kami ng HS classmates.. after a decade..

after 10 years.. makulit parin.. hahaha

anyway.. till next post

happy new year!!!

2009-01-01T06:24:00.001-08:00

Happy new year everyone!!!
A brand new start.. umpisang umpisa ng year.. mag popost ako.. nang mabinyagan.. hahahah.. well.. my day, is like the ordinary day.. but nevertheless.. we made it extraordinary.. mga kababawan.. hahahha..

I have an application in my phone called "face warp". And so, nagtrip kami dito sa house..

My brother in law..

Nieces ko..

sister ko,,,

At syempre.. papahuli ba ko? hahahha

I love the last picture.. pano.. payat ako dyan.. hahha

Hahahah. .there you have it.. hope you had a good laugh out of it.... i did.. smile everyone.. lets start the 2009 right.. mwahhhhhhhhhhh

....

2008-12-16T11:48:00.000-08:00

I know.. I know.. I have lots of debts for my post.. been busy this past few weeks.. sobrang busy sa work.. laging OT dahil sa loads of work.. kaya pagdating sa bahay.. di na ko masyado nakakapag relax.. i actually lost time for my pc na.. naka concentrate ako sa audio book ko ng twilight series. .at nasa breaking dawn ako.. ayaw lang paumpisahan ng kasama ko.. kasi.. mauunahan ko daw sya. .so wait ko lang muna.. hahaha.. ayan.. napadaan ;lang ako. to all passers.. friends.. country men.. my apologies.. just drop a comment here.. so i could catch up on your blog.. sensya na po.. :(...

Lemonade

2008-11-20T17:03:00.000-08:00

I got this award to my dear blogger friends Chelle. Thank you girls for this...

The Rules of this award:
1. Put the logo on your blog or post.
2. Nominate at least 10 blogs which show great Attitude and/or Gratitude!
3. Be sure to link to your nominees within your post.
4. Let them know that they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
5. Share the love and link to this post and to the person from whom you received your award.

Feeling sentimental...

2008-11-17T08:31:00.000-08:00

its just one of those days.. just feeling a little sentimental.Earlier, i was talking to a friend.. we were talking about hiking.. then our topic went to families.. i was telling him a story about the first and last time i went hiking.. i didn't even reach the top.. i was with my dad, uncle and cousin when we decided to go hiking.. somewhere... however, having all fats around me (LOL), hey.. i was just 12 years old then.. hahahha I couldn't go on to the top.. i was just half way. My dad , uncle and cousin to go on. leaving me behind, which i insisted them to.. hahha.. so when they came back, after a few hours, they were telling me some bloopers.. that they slid somewhere.. and even my dad sat on a cactus that time (OUCH).. its a good thing i wasn't there to laugh out loud. lolz. anyway, our topic went to taking a vacation to Boracay. I told him..it will take a long time before i would be able to do that.simply because if I would be going there, i want to be with my family and my special someone.. so its will not be soon.. first, ofcourse.. my parents are not here, so how can I take them there.. secondly, i don't have a special someone to bring as well.. since i simply don't have one.. hahaha.. that's all.. i know some may think of it being cheesy or mushy.. or rather idealistic.. but hey.. this is me. besides.. most of you would agree.. that if you would go to an ideal place,or vacation, you would want to make it memorable and spend it with the people you love most... am i right or am i right? lolz.. till next time :)

tag ni yvet

2008-11-16T16:55:00.000-08:00

Many Thanks to Yvet for nominating me to be the recipient of this Maria Antoinette Award (Real Person Award). I would like to nominate my co-blogger to be the Real Person Awardee. Thank you for sharing your thoughts, feelings, your uniqueness and real personality.

I consider you as a Real, Unique person:

jhelea
rosa
chelle
mira
Laura
GENyZe
thingsandthongs

stay real guyz..
Gracias!

Here are the Rules for the Award:

1. Please put the logo on your blog
2. Place a link to the person from whom you received the award
3. Nominate at least 7 or more blogs
4. Put the links of those blogs on your blog
5. Leave a message on their blogs to tell them.,

Unemployed Graduate

2008-11-13T09:39:00.000-08:00

Another quotable quote.. hehehe.. an email i've received from a friend.. I've read this multiple times yet..everytime i receive it.. the story touches me..just want to share it.. (naman.. masusunog na ko.. hahha)

An unemployed graduate woke up one morning and checked his pocket. All he had left was $10. He decided to use it to buy food and then wait for death as he was too proud to go begging. He was frustrated as he could find no job, and nobody was ready to help him.
He bought food and as he sat down to eat, an old man and two little children came along and asked him to help them with food as they had not eaten for almost a week. He
looked at them. They were so lean that he could see their bones coming out. Their eyes had gone into the socket. With the last bit of compassion he had, he gave them the food. The old man and children prayed that God would bless and prosper him and then gave him a very old coin. The young graduate said to them 'you need the prayer more than I do'.
With no money, no job, no food, the young graduate went under the bridge to rest and wait for death. As he was about to sleep, he saw an old newspaper on the ground. He picked it up, and suddenly he saw an advertisement for people with old coins to come to a certain address.
He decided to go there with the old coin the old man gave him. On getting to the place, he gave the proprietor the coin. The proprietor screamed, brought out a big book and showed the young graduate a photograph. This same old coin was worth 3 million dollars. The young graduate was overjoyed as the proprietor gave him a bank draft for 3 million dollars within an hour. He collected the Bank Draft and went in search of the old man and little children.
By the time he got to where he left them eating, they had gone. He asked the owner of the canteen if he knew them. He said no but they left a note for you. He quickly opened the note thinking it would lead him to find them.
This is what the note said: 'You gave us your all and we have rewarded you back with the coin,' signed God the Father, The Son and The Holy Ghost. 1 Kings 17:10-16; Matthew 11:28-30

an ordinary day

2008-11-12T09:43:00.000-08:00

Once in a while..magtitrip lang ako.. sa mga pamangkin ko.. hahhaha.. they are camera addict just like me.. everytime they see me touching my phone and picturing my self, and ofcourse.. doing some experiments with my phone as well..they would always come up and say.. "tita.. yaku naman" (ako naman)... and the bunso.. everytime he sees the flash on my phone, he would make pa cute.. so.. just to share the pictures of my beloved angels..

silang tatlo

the eldest

the middle child

the youngest

o heto pa..

sorry, di sya sakto.. likot kasi eh.. hahahha

at ako naman.. bago pumasok sa work..hahaha

yan.. yon lang.. haahaha

Trip to Bolinao

2008-11-12T09:09:00.000-08:00

Hello.. its me again..hahaha.. (parang diary ba? lolz) anyway..I know.. I have a kasalanan... I haven't been blogging the past weeks.. and I missed a lot.. been busy kasi lately. busy sa life, work, life, work.. hahaha.. for those who are asking as well.. di po ako busy sa love life.. kasi walang ikaka busy.. hahahha.. well.. ANYWAY.. last time, about 2 weeks ago, a friend of mine invited me sa Bolinao, syempre, all expense paid, so ang ginawa ko.. pumayag ako.. hahaha.. pagdating ko.. guess what? syempre.. nagpicture taking... hahaha.. the only difference is.. picture taking lang ng views.. hindi tao. sawa na kasi ako sa kakatingin sa sarili ko. JOKE!.. syempre.. share ako some pics na kuha sa cam phone ko. (take note...dala ko digicam ko.. dala ko pa phone ko.. so tell me.. addict ba ko? hahahhah)

ang kubo.. bow..

at syempre.. yung sunset.. makakalimutan ba..

at ang sunrise.. na gumising pa ko este ginising pa ko ng 5am para lang mapicturan to.. hahha

o diba.. nakakarelax..

at syempre.. while travelling.. maari bang di papic? hahhaha

sya yung nagaya sakin sa bolinao.. kasi.. para daw may kasama syang ka edad nya.. hahahha

hope you enjoyed the pics.. :)

tag ni chelle

2008-11-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

This tag is all about "FRIENDSHIP OFFERING" with someone whom you know, to someone whom you already knew or will know in the future, globally. And I want to thank Chelle for giving me this tag. I really appreciate it so much.

Start copying here:
Here are the rules for this tag;
1.) Copy the badge and put it on your blog.
2.)Link back who pass you this tag.
3.)Spread this tag to at least 7 or more bloggers who you think you are friend with.
And lovely are the blossoms
That are tended with great care,
By those who work unselfishly
To make the place more fair.
And, like the garden blossoms,
Friendship's flower grows more sweet
When watched and tended carefully
By those we know and meet.
And, if the seed of friendship
Is planted deep and true
And watched with understanding,
Friendship's flower will bloom for you.

Now, I am passing this tag to everyone na naging friend ko.. even through blogging lang.. :)sana.. one of this days.. magka Grand EB tayo.. para naman may pictorial.. hahahha

Tag ni Rose

2008-11-10T19:18:00.000-08:00

Uy,,beautiful naman daw blog ko.. thanks Rose.. mwahhh

Sa lahat po ng blogger friends., you know who you are.. grab na to.. dali.. Click here..

Award na bigay ni Stevevhan

2008-11-10T18:44:00.000-08:00

My blogger friend Stevevhan has honored me with this award. Thanks friend, I really appreciate this...

The rules of the award are:

1. The winner can put the logo on his/her blog.
2. Link the person you received your award from.
3. Nominate at least 7 other blogs.
4. Put links of those blogs on yours.
5. Leave a message on the blogs of the persons you’ve nominated.

well.. same as the first tag..marami kasi akong blog na gustong pinupuntahan.. so feel free to grab it.. another award.. yehey..

Tag ni Rosa

2008-11-10T18:36:00.000-08:00

I receive tag from Rosa. This is so cute. I love it, thanks for tag. Now, let’s spread the Breast Cancer Awareness guys. So, here’s what you need to do:

~~~START~~~

* Put the logo in your Blog.
* Add a link to the person who share it with you.
* Nominate atleast 7 others blog.
* Add your link to the list of parcitipants below
* Leave a message for your nominee on their blog.

Pink Sister, Fara, Massy, N.O.Y, Mariuca, A great pleasure, benchiegrace, grace, Jhelea, Richelle, Demcy, Cecile, Rosa, Hannah and You next!

hmmm...anyone who cares about breast cancer is free to grab this tag...

Tag ni Jhelea

2008-11-10T18:16:00.001-08:00

I would like to thank Jhelea for tagging me along.

Well, here are my answers:

A. Attached or single?~~~certified single
B. Best friend? ~~~ bestfriend ko? depende.. kung sino umaaway sakin.. hahahha
C. Cake or pie? ~~~ cake.. gusto ko.. chocolate mousse
D. Day of choice?~~~ sunday din.. kasi day off.. hahahha
E. Essential item?~~~ cellphone
F. Favorite colour?~~~blue
G. Gummy bears or worms?~~~iwww.. hahahha.. mas gusto ko ang bear
H. Hometown?~~~Angeles Pampanga, Philippines! Mabuhay
I. Favorite indulgence?~~~food trip.. kaya nga lumalaki eh.. grrr..
J. January or July?~~~July.. syempre.. birthday ko.. hahahha
K. Kids?~~~3.. nieces and nephew.. hahahha.. my own kids? ala eh.. sayang nga.. hahha
L. Life isn’t complete without?~~~me.. joke..
M. Marriage date?~~~after nth years.. wala pa kasi yung groom.. hinihintay ko pa.. hahhaha.
N. Number of magazine subscriptions:hmm.. wala
O. Oranges or apples?~~~Apples nalang
P. Phobias?~~~ spiders.. waaaaaaaa
Q. Quotes?~~~"Never pretend to be interested, if deep inside you know you can't prove it. Cause pretension could hurt the person who all along thought... it was for real.." o diba.. gawa ko yan..
R. Reasons to smile?~~~life itself.. complications, trials.. they make me smile.. cause they make me stronger..
S. Season of choice?~~~winter.. sarap ng may kayakap.. kaso.. wala ako.. waaaaaaaa.. hahaha
T. Tag 5 people.~~~ hmmm.. kung sino gusto mag tag..tag your it.. hahhaha
U. Unknown fact about me?~~~i'm also crazy.. kaso.. not just when inlove.. I am crazy all year long.. kamahanak ko si sisa.. bakit ba.. hahahha
V. Vegetable?~~~hmmm.. ano to? hahah
W. Worst habit?~~~Eating too much!!!!(ko din..hahah)
X. X-ray or ultrasound?~~~Ultrasound .. gusto ko.. yung kita talaga yung magiging baby ko sa future.. 3G ba yon?
Y. Your favorite foods?~~~pasta.. yummy...
Z. Zodiac sign?~~~Cancer

Dneero

2008-10-26T18:09:00.000-07:00

Hello, I just received an email regarding my Dneero account. My apologies, I didn't know I have to post it as a post.. hope this would work..

Please let me know.. Thanks

ano ba.. bawal nga ehhh...

2008-10-22T08:06:00.000-07:00

Haller.. so here I am again.. I know.. some of you are making hintay sa next post ko.. o.. aminin nyo.. kung di kayo nagaabang.. bakit nyo binabasa to? hahahhaha.. peace po..

well.. share ko lang to.. kasi.. kanina.. actually.. matagal ko na nakita.. di ko lang pansin.. kanina.. napagtripan ko.. ma blog nga..

I was telling my colleague kanina.. sabi ko.. basahin mo yung naka sulat.. bawal maghugas ng mga pinagkainan.. kasi.. hugas nya yung kanyang mga utensils.. sabi ko.. basahin nya to..

sabi nya,, "so? wala akong pakielam..." sabi ko.. basta.. bawal daw maghugas ng pinggan.. sabi ko.. pakatitigan mo..sabay sabi nya.. oo nga no.. di ko pansin yon.. (pag kayo.. di nyo na gets.. ewan ko nalang..) tignan nyo ulit..

see the problem? matanong ko lang.. ano ibig sabihin nun? hehehe.. sensya. .walang maipuna.. nakita ko lang.. hahahha...PEACE PO.. na okray lang. .just for fun.. heheh..

Apple Mac

2008-10-18T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hello, here i am again.. guess what.. I have a new pc!!!! HAHAHA! HOW I WISH ITS MINE...

One of my boss went back here in the Philippines and showed us the computer of his brother. Infairness, na amaze ako.. sensya.. first time kong nakakita ng ganito kagandang computer... Monitor palang MONITOR na. hahaha... just want to share it sa inyo...

ganda di ba? kita pa kaming nagpipicture.. hahahha

pati keyboard.. infairness. .ang liit..

syempre.. papahuli ba ko sa picture.. ganda no.. ng pc..at feeling ko.. akin talaga.. hahahhah ..

at ang picture ng boss ko.. hahah.. gulat kayo no? lolz

kung sya boss ko.. ok lang ang OTY! hahhaha.. basta sya kasama ko.. maaga pa ko sa opisina.. heheh..

kwento nyan, nagpunta kasi ako ng mall after ko sa work.. so, heto, nakita ko picture ng crush ko. .so kinuhanan ko using my phone.. o diba.. parang kinuhanan ko lang sa personal.. never mind the lights.. hahaha.. yon lang.. na share ko lang.. hehehe

new pod..

2008-10-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

Hello, I know.. i know.. matagal tagal akong di nakapag update.. busy kasi.. at wala masyado maisipan maisulat.. hehehe.. anyway...just an update.. last sat pala.. lumabas kami ng mga kasama ko sa new work ko.. first time kong pumasok sa isang bar.. ng mga naka two piece.. sabi ko sa loob ko.. pwede pala akong mag two piece..kasi.. sila.. di nahihiya eh.. hahaha..at di uso sa kanila ang malaking boobs.. lolz.. tama na. .ayoko magkasala.. hehehe

kanina naman.. finally.. after .. 3 weeks of work.. I finally got my own pod.. dati.. nakikisawsaw lang ako sa pod ng may pod.. ngayon. .meron nakong sariling pc sa work.. hahahah.. (pagbigyan.. bago palang ang company.. at na order palang ang pc from China) sushal nga kaming mga bago.. kasi. .from China pa PC namin..hahah.. anyway. .so, per kaye's suggestion, ayan, may picture ako.. ng pod ko.. hahah

so syempre, extra.. hehehe..

share ko na din pics ng office namin..

ayan. .habang nag papapic mga kasama ko..

ayan.. ang labas.. hehehe.. yon lang muna.. sabi ko nga.. new work new life.. enjoying my work ngayon. .kesa dati..:)

Arte y Pico

2008-10-09T09:22:00.001-07:00

Many thanks to GenYze for this AWARD... I've been receiving lots of award for the past few days and i want to take this opportunity to thank all of you for sharing your award in me... O diba. .another award.. naka ilan na ba ako? hhehe :)

Arte y Pico

The rules of this tag are as follows:
1) You have to pick 5 blogs that you consider deserve this award for their creativity, design, interesting material, and also for contributing to the blogging community, no matter what language.
2) Each award has to have the name of the author and also a link to his or her blog to be visited by everyone.
3) Each award winner has to show the award and put the name and link to the blog that has given her or him the award itself.
4) Award-winner and the one who has given the prize have to show the link of “Arte y Pico” blog, so everyone will know the origin of this award.

Make sure you visit the link above...

Im giving this award to Yffar , Berlai , Marlene, tinkerbelle and Hannah

I LOVE YOU THIS MUCH AWARD

2008-10-09T08:51:00.000-07:00

Ayan.. may award nanaman ako.. hehehe.. thanks to GEnYZe

It started out here in my page...
This award is made for those blogger that you really love...

Rule:

* LINK THE PERSON WHO STARTED THIS AWARD (That's ♥GEnYZe♥)
Link to the person who " LOVE " you ...
Post the rules on your blog (this is what you are now reading).
Tag 7 people at the end of your post and link to them..
Let each person know they have been "LOVED" and leave a comment on their blog...

I'm showing my love to all :)

some are :

Jules

Yuri

Dylan

Chukoy

Inkee

Autumn

Kaye

Malling ulit

2008-10-06T09:23:00.000-07:00

After a Saturday malling day with my friends, Sunday was a malling day for my family.. together with my sister and her family.. So I literally convinced them to go to SM san fernando pa, since i was in SM clark the day before.. so off we go.. it was past lunch time when we have reached there. So, we looked for something to eat. Eh since my sister wanted to try out "Barrio Fiesta". so we searched the whole SM Pampanga para naman ma try.. (and I actually regret the fact, that i asked them to eat there). Ayoko naman sirain yung resto.. maybe nagkataon lang.. basta.. ayoko customer service nila.. to think.. expensive ang food and all..pero... basta.. no comment. ).. anyway.. syempre.. food tripping..

kanin palang.. ulam na.. hehhehe

then.. sa sobrang badtrip ko.. nagaaya akong umalis ng sm pampanga.. so.. sabi ko.. balik kami SM clark.. hehehe.. so dun.. naman kami kumain ng dinner.. haahha.. kaso.. alang picture..nag low bat phone ko.. lolz.. yon lang..

Award :)

2008-10-06T08:45:00.000-07:00

I received this award from Rosa,Genyzeand MarcoPaolo.(grabe.. dumadami na ang awards ko.. sana.. naisasangla.. ehhehe) Once accepting this award, the rules are as follow:

* Put the logo on your blog.
* Add a link to the person who awarded you.
* Nominate 10 other blogs.
* Add links to those blogs on yours
* Leave a message for your nominees on their blogs. (ay ayoko nito.. bahala silang magdiscover.. hehehe.. pasaway eh no.)

With that I nominated 10 other bloggers for this award as well:

Chelle
Gelly
Heart
Ice
Marlene
Mitch
Jhelea
Kikai
Roland
Things and thongs

and to the rest of my blog friends.. this goes to all of you.. MWAHHHH :)

Yesterday's Sale

2008-10-04T19:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i was supposed to meet up with some of my friends in SM Clark (mga friends ko na nakapagresign na din from my "beloved" company na I just left.. nauna lang sila sakin.. so.. 3 kami.. isang lalaki at 2 girls), but before I went home, they called me up saying that they will just pick me up.. buti nalang.. kasi.. it was raining then. heheh.. so in short, nakigulo kami sa SM clark sale. Eh my friend was looking for some things for his girlfriend so, we were looking at the footwear section, so I was just looking at the shoes, and I immediately saw a pair of rubber shoes in hush puppies section. I find it nice.. but since i had no plan to buy any thing at that time (kaya iniwan ko pera ko sa bahay..and sakto lang ang dala ko.. pang pagkain)the thing kasi.. i need a new pair of shoes. kasi, bumigay na lahat ng mga shoes ko.pero nanghihinayang akong bumili.. (yan ang problema sakin.. hehehe).. anyway, eh my friend was fitting some shoes, cause she finds them nice, i showed her the shoes i came across earlier, sabi nya.. uy, cute sila, why not buy them, deserve mo naman.. sabi ko.. wala akong cash sa ngayon.. sabi nya.. hiram ka muna kay Mar, mayaman naman yon.. heheheh (yung kaiisa isang lalaking kasama namin na naghahanap ng gift for his gf..)so i was not totally convince, kasi, nanghihinayang ako.. mahal kaya.. so what she did, she fit the shoes and said its compfortable and all.. haha.. for the sales talk.. dinamay pa si mar. syempre, yung sales lady, naki sali na din sa sales talk.so in short, having to get attracted with the shoes,binili ko.. sabi ko naman.. worth it naman kung ganun diba..so.. heto mga pic.. (syempre.. dapat.. may picture para
masaya..)

cute naman diba.. ang kumontra.. pangit.. heheh..

o diba.. may price pa.. hahaha.. discounted price naman.. so i saved P200. lolz.. 10% lang daw kasi.. new arrivals..

at syempre, habang roaming around, we took some pictures.. hahahha..

ayan picture ko with glasses.. waaaaaa.. mukha na kong lola.. hahhaha.. correction glasses lang yan.. di pa naman malabo mata ko.. lolz

after namin sa SM clark, syempre.. kumain kami.. sa mura nalang .. kasi daw.. ubos na ang budget.. hahahha... kayalang .. walang picture. .kasi.. di na ko nakapag picture.. hahaha.. ay oo nga pala.. nakabili na din ako ng bagong watch.. heheh.. kailangan na.. wla na kong ginagamit na watch.. hahahha.. di ko na tuloy alam ang oras.. lolz

6 things.. .

2008-09-30T09:14:00.000-07:00

This is a meme from Richelle, of Thank you so much for this sis.... Now, it's my turn also to share some of the things that my online friends don't know about me.

1. Link to the person who tagged you (see above).

2. Post the rules on your blog (this is what you are now reading).

3. Write 6 random things about yourself (see below).

4. Tag 6 people at the end of your post and link to them (This is only a game)

5. Let each person know they have been tagged and leave a comment on their blog

6. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

Six Things About Me

1. I could be extremely quiet and extremely talkative

2. I love nature tripping.. huwag lang hiking.. hahhaha.

3. I am very picky.. when it comes to food.. kahit di obvious sakin.. .

4. I tend to forget what i just said a minute ago.. (sus.. memory gap!!!)

5. I love chocolates and addicted to it.

6. I'm not afraid of roaches and rats, but i am afraid of spiders.. lolz

Now I am passing this tag to six of my blogger friends para fun lang. .hehehe..

rosa, kaye, Laura, Jhelea,GEnYZe, Thingsandthongs

di po sapilitan to.. :) just for fun :)

Sheana's Birthday

2008-09-28T17:26:00.000-07:00

Here I am again.. post.. post.. post..

Yesterday, together with my sister and my 2 nieces, we celebrated my niece's 4th birthday. So, we decided to dine out. We went to SM Clark, but have no idea were to eat, so while strolling, I suggested that we eat somewhere they haven't eaten yet, so we went to Congo's Grille. So before we entered, my niece saw the picture where you can stick your face to. .heheh..

too bad the celebrant was distracted.. heheh

so syempre..wala akong camera na dala.. so dapat.. gamitin ang phone..so when the food was served, i told them not to touch it yet.. dapat may picture syempre...

pati tissue.. kailangan may pic.. hehehhe

Then while waiting...

sis ko with the celebrant

papatalo ba ko?

color color muna daw mga bata..

at syempre.. pati background.. pinagtripan..

so finally the food arrived after just a few minutes of waiting.. heheh

The buko pandan

sarap nito.. promise.. too bad.. yung isang order.. nakalimutan kong picturan.. yung steak nila.. :(.. .anyway.. next time.. pipicturan ko yon.. lol

so after namin kumain.. take out naman kami sa yellow cab para sa mga naiwan sa bahay.. so syempre.. di nakalagpas ang place sa pictorial galore..

sweet ng magina diba.. hehehe

eto mas mukhang mag ina.. lolz

ayun... so after the take out.. umuwi na.. heheh.. :)

busy busy busy

2008-09-23T17:19:00.000-07:00

I know.. havent been much active lately.. but.. been busy for the past weeks.. by the way.. just an update sa last week interview ko.. I made it.. i got a new job.. i resigned at my previous job last tuesday morning.. now.. I'm starting at my new job in a few hours.. hehe.. :)..yon lang..

a week in review..

2008-09-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

hmmm.. sige na nga.. bagong post.. hehehe..

Well, been busy these past few days, halos ala akong tulog... kaya saglit lang nakakapagonline.. anyway.. dito lang ako sa pampanga nagala this time.. i just want to share my whole week's escapade..

First of... monday... syempre malling ako. with my sister and my niece, so mega window shopping kami, we came across a cellphone shop that caught my attention, kasi, i saw a phone na attractive, so I asked the price of the phone.. the sales rep said.. it was around 13 thousand but if you use a credit card, it would cost around 15 thou.. so i decided to pass cause I dont really want to max out my newly activated credit card.. hahahha... so, i decided not to go through with it anyway. While walking, i was checking out my phone.. and I saw 4 missed calls from a unknown number. its a good thing that the person who tried to call me contacted me again. It turned out to the company I have applied to over the net.Anyway, they said they would contact me if they would find me qualified and guess what.. they called me after a few hours. lol. Scheduled for final interview last friday.

Tuesday, ano nga ba ginawa ko? been resting the whole day, kasi, i haven't had much rest the day before.

Wednesday, malling nanaman ako.. and finally, i decided to go ahead and purchase the cp that i have found online, (kasi naman. .research ng research.. sa lahat ng features na gusto ko. hahahah.. )so i finally made a decision to basically purchase it using my credit card (which is 15k Plus (ouch) well.. it is worth the phone anyway, and I have been enjoying it till now.. hhahaha.. .Its actually a Sony Ericsson C702.. anyway..

Thursday, I wasn't online as well, been busy with making kalkal my new phone eh. hahaha..

Friday, the dreaded day...waaaa.. I have an interview with the company who called me up last monday, so mega prepare ako.. after 5 years, its was the first time i got an interview from another company. (yes, i was stuck with the same company for 5 years). waaaa.. Well, the interview went fine, but no results yet. I'm still keeping my fingers crossed, hopefully, i will get the job. Wish me lots of luck.. anyway...

Saturday, since I hadn't had any sleep yesterday, i tried to sleep but i just can't. siguro, may nagiisip sakin.. hahaha.. then, work mode parin.

Sunday... finally.. day off na..this morning, my collegues and I decided to take a walk sa park na malapit sa work, just to release stress, so, mega picture nanaman kami.. heheh.. syempre..gamit na yung new phone ko.. hehehhe

o diba.. may historical effect ang park sa tabi tabi.. hahahha

anyway, after that, i went to the mall nanaman, and purchased a memory card for my new cp.. (kasi di sya kasama .. sad no.. anyway.. )now.. i have 2gig of expandable memory and 160 of internal memory.. hahahha.. so ngayon.. mega download ako ng files ko. :D.. back to blogging..

ala lang.. just want to share my busy week kaya di ako masyado online.. I missed my blog.. hahhaha :)

I feel Okay

2008-09-14T16:37:00.000-07:00

I got tagged by Rosa.

“The truth is more important than the facts.”

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Feel okay? Well you should be! You’ll definitely be okay if you’re going to be a part of this meme, be okay if you are about to have a chance to increase your Technorati and Google Pagerank.
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* Your favorites, self made, or any quotes that you shared are collected and will be linked back to your site as its source, this would give you much benefit. Put a category before your quote. (ex. Inspirational, happiness, love, sweet, time, motivational, friendship, and others), much better if you relate the quote on your blog. Ex. Fashion Blog - quotes about beauty; Personal Blog - quotes about success, life, inspirational and many more. It’s your choice.
* Only one quote and category per blog please, make sure to tag as many bloggers possible. Please update your contributor’s list more often. May we achieve thousands of quotes from different bloggers around the world. Let the fun begin. Be a part of a great collection of quotes from different bloggers around the world!!

1)BeautyTips,(2)Emjei Says,(3)Techmobiz,(4)BlackNickel,(5)ifeelokay,(6)iAM-MAi,(7)NeuroPatch, (8)Express4Free, (9)Club101, (10)Earn4aLiving,(11)Solo-Flight,(12)My Touch of Heaven, (13)BigMoneyList (14)A Simple Life (15)Momhood Moments (16)Business Mars (17)Fun|Fierce|Fabulous (18)My Pink Shoelace (19)Rosa’s Meanderings (20)Chronicles & Tales Unlimited (RED) (21) My Inner Thoughts

Now, Im passing this to Everyone who would like to grab it.. heheh :)

Megamall Trip

2008-09-13T22:37:00.000-07:00

Heto nanaman ako.. last Tuesday, i accompanied my friend to NSO nnaman.. so syempre.. when i go to Manila, dapat, gumala muna bago umuwi.. ehhehe.. so this time we went to Mega Mall.Infairness, laki na din improvement compare to the time I last went there. So heto nanaman po ang mga pictures..

Well, the moment we stepped in to the Mall, we looked for Wendy's cause I was craving for their Frosty which I haven't eaten in a while.Then, we also ordered their baked potato which actually reminded me of my mom (whom I missed so much)... that was our bonding food here in Pampanga everytime we go to SM Pampanga. So syempre, sugod kami sa Wendys.. heheh :)

Yummy...

Actually, I also have a picture of my Large Frosty, kaso.. i look so haggard sa pic.. so.. di ko nalang display.. baka mawala pa appetite nyo sa food.. hahaha :)

Then, after a few hours of walking around and window shopping, we decided to have lunch.. and we were thinking where (nanaman) to eat.. so my friend suggested Korean Food.. So I said.. Lets give it a try.. so.. heto..

and one thing I've noticed, whenever we enter a restaurant, the lights are the ones that first caught my attention.. tinatawanan na nga ako ng kasama ko.. bakit daw puro ako light.. mukha na daw light mukha ko (joke.. syempre.. OA nako)

huwag kang sumama sa light.. hahahha

nice diba..

This is the name of the Resto..

don't ask me about the name of the food.. i don't remember.. hahahha..

and by the way.. it was my first time to use chopstick.. with rice and the food.. sobrang hirap pala.. hahah.. pero nagenjoy ako.. sa sobrang paghihirap ko.. di ko naubos kanin ko.. matigas kasi ulo ko.. di ako nag spoon and fork.. hahahha.. atleast.. I'm learning. hahhaha... anyway.. enjoy :)

Another Award

2008-09-13T22:09:00.000-07:00

Sis Tinkerbell hehehe.. thanks sa award,, ayan.. finally, I was able to grab this from you.. hahahah.. :) I'll translate it nalang sa English, so that some of my awardees can understand. hehehe :)

Thanks sis.. If only we can convert this to cash.. hahaha.. joke :)

Thanks for continuously visiting my blog, and I am awarding this bloggers this Diamond (Brilyante (tama ba? hahaha) award to the following friendships :)

The following friendships are my constant visitors :).. thanks and keep the fire burning.. enjoy blogging :)

Mira

Laura

Jhelea

Jha

Berlai

Rose

Rosa

Here are the Rules for passing on the award:
(no pressure, just want to share).. enjoyyyyyyyyyy!!
♦Put the Logo on your blog.
♦add a link to the person who awarded you.
♦Nominate at least seven [7] other blogs.
♦Add links to those blogs on your blog.
♦Leave a message for your nominee on their blog.

THE FOUR CANDLES

2008-09-11T19:29:00.000-07:00

Another inspiring email sent by a friend..could be a cheer up saying.. for those whose spirit is down,,uyyy.. serious.. hahhaha :).. enjoy.. :)

Author Unknown

The Four Candles burned slowly. Their Ambiance was so soft you could
hear them speak...

The first candle said, "I Am Peace, but these days, nobody wants to
keep me lit."

Then Peace's flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.

The second candle says, "I Am Faith, but these days, I am no longer
indispensable. "

Then Faith's flame slowly diminishes and goes out completely.

Sadly the third candle spoke, "I Am Love and I haven't the strength to
stay lit any longer." "People put me aside and don't understand my
importance. They even forget to love those who are nearest to them."

And waiting no longer, Love goes out completely.

Suddenly...

A child enters the room and sees the three candles no longer burning.

The child begins to cry, "Why are you not burning? You are supposed to
stay lit until the end."

Then the Fourth Candle spoke gently to the little boy, "Don't be
afraid, for I Am Hope, and while I still burn, we can re-light the
other candles."

With Shining eyes the child took the Candle of Hope and lit the other
three candles.

Never let the Flame of Hope go out of your life.

With Hope, no matter how bad things look and are...Peace, Faith and
Love can Shine Brightly in our lives.

tagged you..

2008-09-09T22:00:00.000-07:00

Got this tag from Jhelea. Thanks so much sis.

Some RULES:

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RULES:
1.Add your blog/s to the list. Feel free to add all your other blogs.It’s okey if you only post this questions in one blog as long as you answer them.
2. Get back to ME and I’ll add your blogs to the master’s list HERE {Note that you are not ALLOWED to change this links and make sure to leave the exact URL.}
3. Copy from Start to End.
4. Tag as many friends online you know. But you don’t need to be tag in order to join.

Who played along:

1. Music of my Heart 2. Me and Mine 3. Creative in Me 4. For the LOVE of Food 5. Little Peanut 6. Pea in a Pod 7. It’s Where the HEART Is 8. Around the World 9. Fun|Fierce|Fabulous 10. Ozzy's Mom 11. Me,Myself+2 12. Kidd Designs 13. Complex Life 14. My Inner Thoughts

Questions and Answers:

1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:......But the problem with potluck is that, you are required to bring something
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?...... electricfan..
3. What is the last thing you watched on TV?...... hmmm..asero.. hahah
4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:......12:00 noon
5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?......12:44 na
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?......yung electric fan..
7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?.......kanina.. nung tinignan kong paalis ang sister ko
8. Before you came to this website, what did you look at?......Friendster
9. What are you wearing?......pambahay..
10. Did you dream last night?......oo.. nakalimutan ko na nga lang kung tungkol saan
11. When did you last laugh?...... kanina
12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?......curtain.. hahha
13. Seen anything weird lately?......oo.. yung mega mall.. nahilo ako. hahaha
14. What do you think of this quiz?......parang survey sa friendster.. hahaha
15. What is the last movie you saw?......sa cinema.. WALL-E
16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?......my dream car and house and lot.. hahah.
17. Tell me something about you that I don’t know:......i am a human.. ahhahha
18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?.......the way people treat other people.. (especially descriminators.. )
19. Do you like to dance?......yes.. but dancing.. doesnt love me at all.. hahahha
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? a boy?......oist.. hahah.. joke.. havent thought of a good name
21. Would you ever consider living abroad?......Yeah.. with my parents..

It's your turn to have fun Roxy, Richelle, Michy and Cel

kanya kanyang trip..

2008-09-09T18:59:00.001-07:00

ayan naman.. weeeeeee...

sa panaginip ko,
naglalaro tayo sa gubat..
bigla ka nalang kinuha ng gorilya..
umiyak ako at sumigaw!
"KUNIN MO NA RIN AKO!
sumagot ang gorilya..
"BAKIT anak ba kita?

humarap sa salamin c bungi..
tinignan nya ang knyang image then he said:
left side view: Tom clus.
right side view: blad pit.
front view: insert coin!
mwiset..

bading: Papa, finger mo naman ako puwet.
bf: ok
bading: deeper, papa!
(ipinasok ang buong kamay, at my nakapa sa loob)
bf: an0 ito? bakit my celpon?
bading: surprise! hapi monsary!

ang buhay di mo masasabi maaring ngayon,
mamaya o bukas ORAS mo na
kaya dapat lgi kang mg-ingat kaya para safe..
PARACETAMOL BIOGESIC o panu poh?
ingat,"..

Bakit pag commercial ng palmolive ..
buhok ang pinapakita
pag eskinol..
mukha ipinapakita
pag colgate..
ngipin
Bakit pag "modess"
ayaw ipakita?
unfair diba UNFAIR!!...HEHE

Anak: ma! may white hairs na u pala?
Mama: oo anak & your the reason.
every stupidity ng anak
puputi ang every hair ng ina.
Anak: ah! kaya pala puti lahat ng buhok ni lola.

LOLA: alam mo honey kapag katabi
kita at ng aalmusal tayo, nag-iinit parin ako
LOLO: paanong di ka mg iiinit
eh nakalaylay yang DEDE mo sa kape!

Headlines bukas ngayon ang brodkas!
gud news! wlang badnews!

tahanang walang hagdan, inakyat!
Isang bakla ginahsa, tuwang-tuwa!
Unanong madre napagkamalang penguin!
bulag nakapatay, nagdilim daw ang paningin!
tindera ng suka tinoy0!
teacher nagkamali, tinuruan ng leksyon!
basurero nagsampa ng kaso, binasura!
tubero nagkatulo!
misis ng phtographer, nakunan!
isang buntis sinaksak, bata nakaiwas!

Use DEDICATE in a sentence..
pag ginamitan mo yan ng glue for sure
DEDICATE yan..
How about CONTINUE ..
kahapon ang dami dami nyo bakit ngayon ang CONTINUE..
Idagdag pa natin ang VIOLET...
Naholdap yung cellphone ko,
di bale I'LL VIOLET..
eto pa OPINION...
papasok ka sa pinto OPINION..
eh ang CONCLUSION...
syempre, di ka naman makakapasok sa pintuan CONCLUSION..HEHE.....

alam mo'
miss na kita kanina pagkain ko
mukha mo nasa plato ko
pag inom ko mukha mo nasa baso ko, grabe!
pati ba naman sa banyo?
mukha mo nasa inodoro! over nato?

A philosophy teacher challenging a student of his faith in God...
Teacher: To see is to believe, have you seen God?
Student: no sir I haven't
Teacher: Then there is no God!
Student: Sir may I ask a question? Have you seen your brain?
Teacher: No
Student: uwi na tayo, wala palang utak si Sir!

ANAK: Tay wala na naman tayong ulam
AMA: Mahirap ngayon ang buhay anak, tiis muna tayo,
isipin mo na lang yung ulam na sasabihin ko sa bawat subo mo.
ANAK: Cge tay!
AMA: Nilagang baka!
ANAK: Hmmm...sarap
AMA: Adobo baboy!
ANAK: Hmmm...sarap
AMA: Kalderetang kambing!
ANAK: Huhuhuhuhu
AMA: Bakit ka na iyak!
ANAK: Ang anghang tay!

Subject: Inspirational Quotes To Live By

1. Lahat ng problema may solusyon, kung walang solusyon, wag mo
nang problemahin.

2. Always remember, kung kaya ng iba, ipagawa mo sa kanila. Don't
force yourself, make life easier.

3. Hindi lahat ng gwapo may girlfriend. . ang iba sa kanila
may boyfriend...

4. Don't face your problem if your problem is your face...umiwas sa lahat
ng bagay na nakakaaninag- --salamin; microwave; stainless steel na
kawali, kaldero, kutsara, tinidor; mag-pokus sa mga letra kapag
nasa harap ng computer screen.

5. Di bale ng tamad, di naman pagod..

6. Praktis makes perfect but nobody's perfect, so don't praktis

7. Kung gusto, may paraan; kung ayaw, may dahilan.

LOL

2008-09-07T21:56:00.000-07:00

Joke time lang :)

Four friends, who hadn't seen each other in 30 years, reunited at a party

After several drinks, one of the men had to use the rest room.

Those who remained talked about their kids.

The first guy said, 'My son is my pride and joy. He started working at a successful company at the bottom of the barrel. He studied Economics and Business Administration and soon began to climb the corporate ladder and now he's the president of the company. He became so rich that he gave his best friend a top of the line Mercedes for his birthday.'

The second guy said, 'Darn, that's terrific! My son is also my pride
and joy. He started working for a big airline, then went to flight school
to become a pilot. Eventually he became a partner in the company, where he owns the majority of its assets He's so rich that he gave his best friend a brand new jet for his birthday.'

The third man said: 'Well, that's terrific! My son studied in the
best universities and became an engineer. Then he started his own
construction company and is now a multimillionaire. He also gave away something very nice and expensive to his best friend for his
birthday: A 30,000 square foot mansion.'

The three friends congratulated each other just as the fourth
returned from the restroom and asked: 'What are all the congratulations for?'

One of the three said: 'We were talking about the pride we feel for the successes of our sons. ...What about your son?'

The fourth man replied: 'My son is gay and makes a living dancing as a stripper at a nightclub.'

The three friends said: 'What a shame... what a disappointment.'

The fourth man replied: 'No, I'm not ashamed. He's my son and I love him. And he hasn't done too bad either. His birthday was two weeks ago, and he received a beautiful 30,000 square foot mansion, a brand new jet and a top of the line Mercedes from his three boyfriends.'

Award for 8 of my blogmates :)

2008-09-06T22:49:00.000-07:00

This award was given by Autumn.. great writer and a blog addict my and my friends became fond of.. heheh..

So now, I am passing it.. (so makigaya ako ng line)... rather.. sharing this to 8 friends too.. :).. Try dropping by their blog.. some of my faves.. :) and constant visitors..

Roxy

Richelle

Nina

Jhelea

Cel

Dylan

Jules

Inkee

hmmm.. kailangan ba 8 lang? di ba pwedeng more? hehhe :) Thanks thanks..

happy birthday!!!

2008-09-05T22:56:00.000-07:00

Well..I just want to greet 2 of my friends a Happy Birthday.. Through thick and thin.. we will still remain intact.. right guys.. love you friendships..

To Dylan.. belated, I know you dont want everything broad casted but wala ka magagawa.. blog ko to, hhahahha..stay cool and keep your cool.. and to Jules.. Happy Birthday friend.. dont worry.. let's just be positive.. everything will just fall into place.. you have lots of potentials.. you will reach far..
Magpinsan nga kayo.. parehong gifted.. mga talentado.. :)

just want to share some pics of the past.. and the present.. lol..

I'll always be here guys.. :) tumatanda na tayo.. hahahha.. :) mwahhhhhhh

broken lines...

2008-08-31T04:17:00.000-07:00

ala lang.. broken lines na di matapos tapos.. hehehhe :)

how could you tell me you care
if you dont even accompany me
how could you tell me your just there
Even in your presence I cannot even feel
that somehow you have that special feelings
the feelings that i long to see
the emotions i thought, i could finally have
being the apple of your eyes

__________________________
why is it everytime i try
I feel a failure in my own way
trying my best to let go of you
doing my best to forget about you
but everytime i ignore you
the more, i feel closer

Emote

2008-08-31T03:39:00.000-07:00

Well, I am back.. heheh.. I've been busy lately. been busy being a sister and a caregiver.. lol.. I was in the hospital for the past week. My sister was confined because of an operation she has to undergo. anyway.. while we were in the hospital, i was with my niece. And being picture addict just like her aunt.. we decide to take some pictures together.

Just want to share them

mag tita na adik sa camera....

sad.. :(

oh my...

huh?

pacute..

hayzzz

ganda ba?

sakit ng ulo ko..

ahhh.. hiya ako.. hehehe

enjoy lang..diba.. hehehe..

Have a Blessed Day

2008-08-16T22:44:00.000-07:00

I just love sharing the emails that I receive.. specially if I was touched by the message.. :).. just want to share this.. it was sent to me by a collegue :)

A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said:
"I am blind, please help."
There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat.
He then took the sign, turned it around,
and wrote some words.
He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up.
A lot more people were giving money
to the blind boy. That afternoon the man
who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, "Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?"

The man said, "I only wrote the truth.
I said what you said but in a different way."
What he had written was:
"Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it."

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

Moral of the Story: Be thankful for what you have. Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently and positively.

Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, "Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness! In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience."

The most beautiful thing is to see
a person smiling!
And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

Have a great day everyone :)

Another "Gala" day

2008-08-13T01:03:00.000-07:00

Hayzzz.. I just got home from another "gala" day. hehehe.. Well, my friend ask me to accompany her to NSO then after that, we proceeded to Gateway Mall. So here I go again, strolling along Manila Area. ahahaha.. So while strolling and while killing the time, we strolled in the mall doing some window shopping. When we got tired, we decided to have our early lunch. And went to "Burgoo". Infairness, the ambiance is nice..

Heto nanaman mga LIGHTS.. hehehe..

and the place itself if nice. especially fine dining talaga ang set up ng place

quite expensive but the food is great.

infairness, kahit expensive, it is worth the price naman. hehehe

and after that.. syempre.. walk and walk kami. then, there is a place in the center of the mall with lots of trees and its actually a restaurant(sa pagkakaalam ko) but the ambiance as well is sobrang ganda. kaya syempre, dapat nagpapic ako. so eto po.. :)

so kailangan lagi akong extra.. hehehe

weeee,, another gala day .. .hehehe.. masarap kasi magmalling.. lalo it would serve as a form of relaxation. pang unwind, pampalipas oras at pampalimot ng problema kahit saglit. don't you agree? :D

It's All About Me :)

2008-08-11T22:34:00.000-07:00

This is a tag I got from Marie. Thanks for passing this on to me. :)

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The object is to complete each of the following snippets. I have included the blank ones at the end of this post so they can easily be copied and pasted.

Participants: Startin’ A New Life, Too / All Things Me / Because Life Is Fun / Feels Like Home / My Happy Place / Iam Dzoi / Suburban Sass / To the Moon and Back / Raising Sandy / Mommy Talks / Aggie Shoots. Aggie Scraps / All Kinds of Me Stuff / The Salad Caper / Winding Creek Circle / InkBabyStudios / My Colorful World/ Random Thoughts / Explore Manila / My Online World / My Life in this Wonderful World/ In Depth /Pinay WAHM. / Small and Simple Things / My Life.... My Journey!/ My Life's Rollercoaster Ride/ YOU / My Inner Thoughts

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I am: Hannah.
I think: I need a break.. weeeee.
I know: I'm beautiful.. inside.. lolz
I have: a job that i hate so much.. hahhahah
I wish: I may. I wish I might, have one wish come true tonight..
I hate: being dictated.
I miss: jollibee.. lol
I fear: the lost of my love ones
I hear: alot of rumors.. hahahha
I smell: something fishy.. lol
I crave: pizzaaaaaa
I search: for peace of mind.
I wonder: why some people can see life all so positive.. while I cant.. hayzzz
I regret: being so moody.. lol
I love: blogging and i love him. hahaha
I ache: in my heart. weeee
I am not: a contented person now
I believe: in miracles.
I dance: when i hear a upbeat music..
I sing: a lot.. although singing simply dont like me.. hahaha
I cry: when i am sad
I fight: for what I believe in
I win: over my own self
I lose: my self in love.. weee
I never: go out without my cellphone. hehehe
I always: try my best to get what i deserve
I confuse: i'm confused..lol
I listen: to music.. when I am down
I can usually be found: at my room sleeping
I am scared: of losing my loved-ones! (same answer.. lol)
I need: a break
I am happy about: being alive.. inspite of all negative things being experienced
I imagine: my life with happiness in the end and LESS complicated.

I am now passing this tag to Dylan, Inkee, and Jules

Stress Free

2008-08-06T16:55:00.000-07:00

I got this email from a friend, and it did made my day.. (e anong magagawa ko.. mababaw ako.. hehehhe)

AND IF HE WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU AND PITY YOU, WHAT YOU SHALL DO??????????????????????

And still NOTHING HAPPENS???

Heheheh...:)